Why Should I Stop Crying - I'm Sad & In Pain Ffs

[timetorecover]

I hold it together for my kids, my grandparents, my parents even. My husband too! I can not be ill, I just gotta get on with it. You cannot see PTSD, so get on with it eh? So I do, as best as I can. Without support or understanding.

But now I have done an injury to my back, can barely sit, lay or walk, I am in agony, on untold medication, very depressed and feel like SHIT!

My husband told me today that I should not still be tired cos I had lots of sleep the night before (even though I woke all night with shooting pains down my legs).

I went to bed early again last night as I just could not cope with anything and he came in to me and told me to stop crying.

I am not sure why he is so insensitive. I think maybe he just cannot cope with me.
All I am thinking about is DIVORCE. He is a good person, good dad, good provider but a crap partner. I am lost. Don't want to be a single parent. Just feel so alone anyway though!:cry:

 

[schnauzerbabies]

You are not alone. A lot of us have people who we love that just don't get it. Hugs. Hang in there.

 

[evergreen]

Aww, I am so sorry to hear. This reminds me of something that happened to me a few years ago. My back was spasming terribly and my husband was just acting as if I was a pain in the ass. It really hurt me. I had lower back pain which is supposedly associated with feeling a lack of emotional support.

I ended up finding relief with accupuncture. Once I got physical relief and got a little stronger emotionally, I had a talk with him about just how important it was for me to feel cared for and cared about.

Moms and wives are often taken for granted because of the strength we show. Sometimes we have to let our families know what we need. But trying to explain it while being triggered and in pain is not a good idea.

Take a hot bath, some anti inflammatories, maybe some essential oils for your back. Bring yourself to a peaceful state where you can get the answers you need.

Wrap a blanked of love around yourself and take care.

xo