Why The Mood And Energy Level Drops?

[mamachick]

I don't know if others experience this or not or if it is part of ptsd. Sometimes I go to bed feeling ok, and wake up sad, in physical pain and without energy. I speculate as I know that sometimes my dreams effect my mood and if they are stressful, maybe I dont sleep well.

Yesterday, friends telling me about an acquaintance who is BPD, could have ptsd-dont know, but how she showed up at a restaurant/bar and the drama created as she was becoming very sexual with both men and women. At the time, she had a husband and fiance who were both with her at the time. Those talking about it used humor in the story, which I understand.

I know I thought of it a couple of times throughout the evening. I had witnessed similiar and told her she was going to get hurt. I tried to get her to go home. She got mad at me which is fine as I wont be put in such situations. Im sure that she has childhood trauma in her life and that is why she puts herself in situations.

This has nothing to do with me but I am guessing that even thinking about it makes me relate to self desrtuctive behavior of my own, (which I just realized in writing this.)

It is like it reinforces in me that the world is not a safe place and the people in it cant be trusted. (the husband and fiance both enjoy watching this woman sexually accost strangers). I know enough about her to know that she uses her sexuality for approval from men. If it is not bad enough that she is suffereing, there are men willing to play along and fill her full of alcohol and encourage this.

I am still in be at 1pm and feeling sick all over. Until I started this thread, I didnt realize why. I dont mean to make this like a journal although it seems. Now I am going to challenge those beliefs and get my butt up and accomplish my plans today.

I associate rude sexual behavior with alcohol abuse as my mother was an alcoholic and I witnessed things little girls should not see. Many men would not go along with such self exploitation but birds of feather flock together. I guess the truth is that people will find others who will do the dance with them, those that wont, they rid of. There are good people in the world. It still makes me very sad and difficult to shake.

Does anybody else go to bed with a plan for the next day and wake up feeling icky all over and cant explain why? Feel bad enough to have o motivation to do what planned ? Where it seems there is no specific reason for it. And if so, have you found that there is something that happened that maybe you just moved past and didnt, or tried not to give any thought to.

 

[OKRADLAK]

Yes, it is a living nightmare. I never expect to feel good anymore. If I do, I actually get scared. Like what is THIS?

 

[mamachick]

I just dont know how to handle the low moods when they come. I usually have an attitude of "grab yourself by the bootstraps" and do something. Im afraid the something is just "busying" myself and taking care of obligations and then tuning out, maybe dissociating, and that it is a band aid solution-then returns in a few days. Its not addressing the problem. I use to honor committments-almost always. Now I make very few and spend time trying to figure out how to get out of them. (particularly if it wont cause another any real harm). I have a friend that is 20 yrs older and doesnt get out much and has little other outlets. I do keep committments to take her shopping almost no matter what. I think its because it would be harmful to her to back out. I tell my daughter I will walk with her after work or on Saturday, then pray it is storming so I dont have to.

How does one know if more meds or different meds might help? Im afraid to try in fear of getting wrong meds and getting worse as this has happened and I fell hard and hurt those I love.

Im up, dressed made phone calls, and am ready to run errands but dont want to leave. Are there any 30 day inpatient treatments for ptsd? My T is very good but I feel I need something more than I am getting. I cant seperate physical from emotional and lack motivation and sometimes just cant put one foot in front of the other.

 

[Reclusive]

I so hear you.... there are absolutely days when I went to bed thinking I'd be all productive and then BAM - it didn't happen. I didn't sleep well, I feel exhausted and hopeless, I just want to hide in bed all day. And unless there's something that HAS to be done that day, I usually go ahead and stay in bed. And if stuff has to get done, I only get that done as soon as I can and then let myself zone out the rest of the day. I kind of wake up and go 'oh, this one's a mulligan' and hope the next day is better. And it usually is.

 

[aditi]

I don't know if others experience this or not or if it is part of ptsd. Sometimes I go to bed feeling ok, and wake up sad, in physical pain and without energy. I speculate as I know that sometimes my dreams effect my mood and if they are stressful, maybe I dont sleep well

Does anybody else go to bed with a plan for the next day and wake up feeling icky all over and cant explain why? Feel bad enough to have o motivation to do what planned ? Where it seems there is no specific reason for it. And if so, have you found that there is something that happened that maybe you just moved past and didnt, or tried not to give any thought to.

Brat, I've discovered that it probably is dreams that do that to me. I think most anything can do it right down to the phase of the moon. I'm really weird at full moon! But I have heard, not from a good source but I heard it, that people with fibromyalgia for example have more dreams, more REM sleep and less restful deep sleep, and that might be a contribution. I believe that's the same for me. I dream more than anyone I know, and even when I can't remember them I think that feeling I wake with is because of them.