Gosh that's tough, it came home to you quite quickly.Thank you. My therapist of 15 years first got sick in Jan and somewhere in one of his hospital stays he picked up coronavirus. He is one of those "long-haulers." - he's been sick for months, his illness dipped and rebounded just as I've heard from others and read in the media.
That would be eerie.It's weird to watch events play out in neighborhoods that I've lived in and around, in the past,
Can you also focus where you are right now?
Take time out from watching news?
I limit my exposure.
That would be so hard.Too many of the videos from nyc and philly that they put onto national news, are places I've lived or places I've spent a lot of time in.
I am doing grounding at the moment. Can you do something like that ground yourself out of being in the past?
I was in hospital for 5 hours last night, wearing a mask, it causes different folks varied stresses.This sounds stupid but my favorite famous landmark nyc bookstore, the Strand, was quite close to being looted. "Oh the bookstore is safe!" and .. It just emphasizes how events are a little skewed to each and every person.
I am glad your book store is okay, what good things do you have where you are now?
It's hard.It is good that I am not stranded alone in a crowded city, but at the same time feeling a little guilty, thinking I should be physically present with others to witness the pain of my places in person and not just via news recaps.
But it does not help for you to feel guilty, but I know what you feel. I am lucky to be on acres and wish everyone have what I have.
I am listening to David Burns' podcasts - "what you think about is what you feel". I have OCD thinking so I have to jump on it quickly or I ruminate. His book on distorted cognitions is good. The podcasts distract and disrupt my ruminations.
I am reading "Healing Developmental Trauma" which is really helping with understanding my challenges. That's the bottom up approach (with some top down approaches).
I can't believe my thoughts. I also can't believe my feelings. It feels true but is not real, what I feel in terms of pathological shame and badness and guilt.
With our fires a lot of people still do not have new homes and are still living in tents. Still other people are helping. I was part of a group that raised money. We all help out how we can.I feel for all these people who are forced to leave their homes, the places they've built for themselves, for ANY reason, including coronavirus.
We are also really helping each other.The whole world is wrapped together in a great big mess.
You are right here right now sharing and thus including others and I am showing compassion for you so comforting you and others.
We are being community to each other, creating community for others. We are fixing the mess together.
I only can type with one hand, so my answers are slow.