I don't know whether to keep moving or to drop. No clue..... laugh or cry? Party or be still.
What I do know is that during my feedback session with the Facilitators in the course I have been taking, my life turned around 180 degrees. I am officially a Facilitator for WRAP (Wellness Recovery Action Plan)!
I sat outside smoking afterwards....trying to take it all in. Within a space of 5 minutes I learned how to think about the future again! My head was making plans, figuring out strategies, thinking of the possibilities.
OMG! Do you realize that there just might be hope for me right now??? That I don't have to die with all of this inside me? That I can help others? Encourage them? Give THEM hope??
1st call I made was to my dear friend the Shaman, who is also a Facilitator at a different organization. She said that they were speaking about this new facilitator skill of mine and wanted to ask me if I would facilitate WRAP there!
WHAT?????? A setup gig already? Comeon!!!!!!! This is so much to soak in. My head is spinning, my body feels like rubber (although that could be the drugs).
Maybe all of this wasn't for nothing. Is it possible that I can actually flip this around and turn this into empowerment?
I don't know whether to keep moving or drop. But I promised myself a very long time ago to not let these experiences die inside me. I didn't see hope for that - not for a long time.
I think today I actually see that hope - for real.
What I do know is that during my feedback session with the Facilitators in the course I have been taking, my life turned around 180 degrees. I am officially a Facilitator for WRAP (Wellness Recovery Action Plan)!
I sat outside smoking afterwards....trying to take it all in. Within a space of 5 minutes I learned how to think about the future again! My head was making plans, figuring out strategies, thinking of the possibilities.
OMG! Do you realize that there just might be hope for me right now??? That I don't have to die with all of this inside me? That I can help others? Encourage them? Give THEM hope??
1st call I made was to my dear friend the Shaman, who is also a Facilitator at a different organization. She said that they were speaking about this new facilitator skill of mine and wanted to ask me if I would facilitate WRAP there!
WHAT?????? A setup gig already? Comeon!!!!!!! This is so much to soak in. My head is spinning, my body feels like rubber (although that could be the drugs).
Maybe all of this wasn't for nothing. Is it possible that I can actually flip this around and turn this into empowerment?
I don't know whether to keep moving or drop. But I promised myself a very long time ago to not let these experiences die inside me. I didn't see hope for that - not for a long time.
I think today I actually see that hope - for real.
