You Know You Have PTSD When...

[void]

....when you are having a fairly good day and your muscles are STILL tight as a drum

 

[Ronin]

When you panic when your muscles aren't doing that. What on earth happened and what the ef doo? Oh, is that what people call 'just chilling'. :wideeyed: And it's supposed to be a good thing, for some reason. :cautious: Not persuaded. :eek::D

 

[Anrish]

When you feel like a failure for nothing....

 

[Ocean5]

When your heart rate is double what it normally is for hours, then days... and you think, "not again."

Then wonder how long this has been going on...

 

[ISupportHer]

You know you have PTSD when you view Santa Claus as a stalker and he only comes once a year!

Ha, ha, my annual post on this thread. Wait a minute, I've been here long enough to have an annual post?

 

[Fadeaway]

When your spouse really wants you to have a good time at his work Christmas party, but you can't because you got seated at a table with your back to everyone, then you feel worse, because you feel super guilty for not having a good time, and you can't bring yourself to lie effectively about it, hurting your spouse's feelings.

 

[Ronin]

You'd happily exchange people electrocuting you for mental abuse you're dealing with, because goddamn, less of your yourselfness collapsed with the former.

And you're angry 'I know how to recompose after destruction of self' isn't something to put to CVs.

So you tick 'I'm very flexible' instead.

 

[Forgetful]

During your first EMDR session a previously forgotten trauma pokes it's little head out which then causes zoning out that lasts days, (I guess my brain hasn't completely come back yet because I can't figure out how to spell the correct word). When I snapped out of it I realized I had cut my own hair. I usually will trim the front a couple of times in between haircuts but when I think about it for the 3rd time I'll go get it done. I never tried to cut the back before. Oh well I can't say that anymore. LOL

....when someone in my small circle of support asks what I am doing and in response I say"breathing" or "meltdown" they understand that I am incapable of having a conversation right then.

 

[Anrish]

When you cannot focus because you have nothing to keep you busy...

 

[Ocean5]

You know you have PTSD when you view Santa Claus as a stalker

When your memories of Christmas and Holiday season are hell from childhood....you ask why is military tracking him? Shoot him down.
(Yea I can have dark sense of humor.)

 

[Ronin]

you ask why is military tracking him? Shoot him down.

They cannot, they have large mil families and need their Christmas booze.

And the booze douchebag forgot the last time. :D

 

[void]

...when you see a child being loved and you wonder what it would have been like to know what love is...