You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Ronin]

When it's the little things in nightmares that freak you out, not how graphic they are.

Some angles of light are just terrifying.
You belatedly realize that's because everything else is what's really terrifying... we no go there. More compartmentalizing.

 

[Ronin]

& Constantly forgetting basic terms just because they were used during something traumatic.

Swear to god. How many times do I have to re-learn something so simple as a port side. :yuck::banghead::banghead: Effing damned months of trying. Sooner wild gesturing and more orderly gesturing than remembering that word.

 

[Ronin]

When the future doesn't exist, but plans for it you're not abandoning do, and that disconnect is jarring.

& When you want to explain how that particular foreshortened future and determination despite all odds plays into the past but in the same mindset, past doesn't matter, nothing of it, so why bother.

 

[Anrish]

When the future doesn't exist, but plans for it you're not abandoning do, and that disconnect is jarring.

I can relate to this. I also have no real plans - there's no future for me...or plans or dreams...it's so weird. Everyone else seems to have goals.

When you react the way I did...

We had a conversation about small talk and similar stuff and I said that I'm not good with small talk. A coworker asked me "How do you get along on parties?"...me "What parties?"...uhm, yes...

 

[Sandstone]

---you don't know if you are entitled to have PTSD

 

[shimmerz]

You wait 45 extra minutes at a restaurant to get a seat where you can see all of the exits. Just.in.case.you.need.to.bolt.

 

[katz]

You would rather sit on the floor in the corner then up with the "grown ups". Because it feels "safer".

 

[Ronin]

Quadruple checking a room & everyone in it just isn't enough. :facepalm::rolleyes:

 

[Forgetful]

- your 3 yo granddaughter announces she's going to make noise because she knows it bothers you. Unfortunately she thinks it's a game. It's not!

- your speed between fine and rage is faster than the speed of light. And that scares you!

- you didn't realize you don't cry until Pdoc assigns it as homework.....and you still can't.

- you feel like you're in everybody's way and like you're annoying/disturbing everybody when you speak.

 

[Forgetful]

You'd like to listen to loud music but can't because you might miss a noise that you should take action against, but at the same time wish you could block out. :banghead:

 

[Ronin]

your 3 yo granddaughter announces she's going to make noise because she knows it bothers you.

Precious little baby. Made my day hearing, thank you.

 

[Gs172003]

When you carry a small mechete in your pocket on a walk and have a scenario on how you will use it just in case



Don't mess with me. Ha!