You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Friday]

Wake up... Discuss aspects of torture over coffee. Make breakfast. Realize I've been standing still holding a piece of toast whilst staring off into space for about 30 minutes. Finish making breakfast. Realize I somehow have 2 breakfasts on the table. Cool! That saves time. Now I don't have to make dinner! :D I am kicking ass at this food thing. Just look it! 2 whole sets of food. :happy: Good on you, self!

The realization that none of the above is exactly normal, but I don't really care, because it's been a good morning.

Forget to eat either breakfast.

 

[Ronin]

When... Your variant is: Got coffee, got talk... shit, I needa eat also, because Different Situations, thanks for destucking me from my past homies :D How do I move that thanks into a serious discussion. Oh right. It prolly no go there. No matter :D More croissants.

 

[Lionheart]

when you get triggered by some unknown stressors and have an anxiety attack without any negative or automatic thoughts being present to blame on the anxious mood.

 

[Ellabella44]

when a few good events are happening this week and you feel you need an isolation / sensory deprivation day to prepare for them

 

[jaccat]

When you find yourself sitting alone on a bench in a wood at 9pm because your therapists thinks it might help relax you.

 

[Anrish]

@jaccat : Did it help? :hug:

When you think running while it rains might be not so bad because you won't meet any people outside. :ninja:

 

[Ronin]

When you schedule yourself going to an event....
Then remember the shit these people said all the other last times
And decide on nope, solo partying with Spanish hip hop it is. Dances to do. Dances fix everything. And by dances I mean nodding my head rhythmically in case I'm too starved & tired & done to move. Cough.

 

[jaccat]

@Anrish yes and no. Yes, I relaxed, but the idea was it would help me sleep better and it didn't.

 

[Anrish]

@jaccat : Maybe you have to try it regularly? :confused: ...see the positive: Relaxation is a good thing.

 

[Ronin]

When some f*cked up things, like what you sleep in, are still the saddest, and most energizing, things in your life.

(Surprisingly, no less sadness sleeping in dead buddy' jacket. The memory of care is with me when that jacket is. That's good enough. Hello C, grow the f*ck up, and all. Ship it to where you're not going & suck it up.)

 

[Whyteferret]

When you have felt sucidal for days, the national suicide hotline tells you to "sleep it off" and you decide to go running. At two in the morning.

And of course, you wear your bright yellow PT belt because you don't want to get hit by a car. A mile later, you realize what you did and are standing at the side of the road, laughing hysterically.

 

[Ronin]

You participate in a study when you think you're doing exceptionally well.

Only to have them come back to you, very sensitively recommending treatment for severe depression, and asking if you have professional help already? :banghead::D