You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Ronin]

when instead of packing for your epic quest, you crawl into bed

... and celebrate the victory, for you've survived another day with all of everything you've lived still in your life.

 

[Friday]

When you're so profoundly bored you flip through your list of triggers to see if any of them might give you something to do.

 

[Ronin]

When living in a tent far away from people sounds as an ideal housing.

When you spend all of the mindfulness moments you have for the Now on not punching incompetent demanding imbeciles.

When social networks are your reminders gentle & normal people exist & you're not a violent jerk by nature, because lookit, all the awesome polite interactions with decent & smart & smooth as hell homies you've had in the past week :D

 

[Lola Nocheprieta]

and celebrate the victory, for you've survived another day with all of everything you've lived still in your life.

Thank you, buddy, for the reframe. It came at just the right time and brought tears to my eyes.

 

[Ronin]

You're welcome, @Lola Nocheprieta .

I'm still behind on getting dandelion decaf, or: The smallest missions, still the most life-saving. :sneaky: So once again thank you for that goal, & reminders.

 

[Deleted member 29920]

The emptiness makes you think you're dying.

 

[Keming]

when you see the date, and the colour of your shirt, and start puking in the kitchen sink.

 

[Ronin]

When putting together what date & event are spinning you this time is too much of an intellectual exercise.

And you were juuust busy puking, cannot do these mental Olympics at the moment.
All around if you had a day planner with scheduled managing-PTSD-activities, you'd be so busy & accomplished, but sadly your actual day planner has also Current Life Issues inserted in it. :cautious:

 

[Anrish]

When just falling down on the floor and remaining there forever seems like a good option.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Your hearing is getting worse and worse because you use music to drown out the voices in your head

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Your shower takes 2 hours because you wash the physical and the mental filth both.

 

[Ronin]

Showers bother you as hell because you feel like drowning / being drowned.

Actual drowning, on another hand, feels like a return to should-have-been, hello home, peace. :cautious::banghead:

All around your reaction to triggers is just contradictory depending so many other factors of the thing. Hi, complex trauma. We'll label you Adventure (Not Gone Yet) and enjoy you.