You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Rani G2]

@Ronin...Thank you my friend.
No apathy, Got my a** to the training, the cry is done and still going.

So a heart is cracked slightly

 

[Friday]

When you only have 2 high stress ways of getting up & out of the house.

1. Elapsed time : 90 seconds - 3minutes (showered). Dressed, bag over shoulder, makeup on. Time to make the day my bitch.

2. Elapsed time : 15 hours. :banghead: f*cknf*cknf*ckf*ckf*ckityf*ckf*ck.

 

[Ronin]

:hilarious: Friday.

Or in: Check.

Both are success... you got out of the house aand the house is still left untouched. :ninja:

Or okay, maybe that stupid habit to remove obstacles, no regard for personal safety, is just me.

In which case yo homie, train up! Damage to walls in pair is funnier than solo. ;)*

* Seee, it ain't that bad. You still get out like normal reasonable peoples.

 

[mumstheword]

You feel you have to leave this site and never come back, feels so unsafe, so unsafe, so unsafe, but it guts you, because you don't have a social life in RL and this is the best sense of community you have.....so sad, "mildly distraught", can't talk about it, shame is too great, just have to hide, more licking of wounds, but, the sense of self pity is nauseating.

 

[Rani G2]

Can relate @mumstheword
the internal struggle has been massive lately! Lost ppl ( Not death) Down the road, suppressing the needing for connection, yet fearing human relationships ( Except husband/parent) I‘m tired after/still doing the work! Just tired

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

When it feels like literarily everyone in the house is repeatedly calling your name. And coming to your room. And talking to you. And telling you things. And asking you questions. Until you feel like if one more person says your name you're probably going to scream!

 

[Ellabella44]

When you go to a meeting and the topic for the day is fears and you can't discuss it because every time the door to the room closes to me is a slam. Hypervigilence and panic kick in. Then everything is too loud. Everything feels like a threat. Have to see all that doors.

There's too many people and the footsteps of people above are my parents coming to drag me away to re enact the trauma I'm going through an anniversary of.

I had to run my key lanyard through my fingers to re direct my head deep breathing and keep repeating that the people here won't let my parents take me.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

When you realize that you've been starting to feel numb again.

 

[mumstheword]

When distracting yourself and being exhausted, is all you can manage.

 

[Rani G2]

People could become enemies, I must always be powerful, ready, my weakness should not be known..

 

[DharmaGirl]

What seems plausible one day, is incredibly overwhelming the next.

 

[Ronin]

People could become enemies, I must always be powerful, ready, my weakness should not be known..

Enemies are just other people with shit manners.

Is what it boils down to. And many of these, scowling or raising brows works at. As one does. At infractions of polite society rules.

Weaknesses known? We call that a trap. ;) Damn good things to air.