You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Changing4Best]

When you go to the kitchen or somewhere in the house right after you turn on your computer, and then forget that it is on. Later you notice the little blue light on the speakers, otherwise you would not have noticed, as the screen already had blanked out.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

When you're sitting across the table from your daughter while she's holding her phone and texting her friends. And even though she has her phone on vibrate and even though it vibrates very quietly when she gets a message you can hear it even though she can't.

 

[J_trustno1]

@Mercy : thanks for your response. Well I have told my T about this even last year to another T. They both have said to me that i am actually wasting my time thinking about them and giving them control. I used to want to ask them about all the hurtful things they have done but now i don't talk to them or see them. However, when I get somewhere in my life and when i get to see my father (he's living in Asia right now looking after his old mother), i mean when he comes to NZ, I will confront him! I have not tried shutting that man up but I will do it when I become successful, I don't see the point in arguing with him right now. Well I have already disowned him from my life but he was the first abuser in my life who berated me, tried killing me and my mother, humiliated me, discriminate and disrespect women, hated me because I was JUST a girl! So the day I become a woman of my dreams and have an identity I WILL confront him! However, for the rest of the abusers I don't have anymore energy to waste on them because I have wasted enough energy over them in the past 14 yrs, they are just not worth the fight. ALL my abuse primarily relates to my father because if he hadn't treated us the way he did we wouldn't have been in this country or getting into further abuse by my mother's siblings.

According to me, his JUDGEMENT day is the day I become the person I want to be (i.e. a strong female figure) and that is the day he will HAVE to answer my questions!! I AIN'T letting that man go to hell without confronting me! I know this will waste my energy but he has destroyed my childhood!

 

[Changing4Best]

When you see a mangled turtle on the sidewalk and start to imagine how it must have gotten that way, after feeling sorry for it.

 

[Mercy]

When your anger and terror are so bottled up that it is hard to draw even a tiny breath. The memories are so hard it literally takes your breath away.

 

[Changing4Best]

When you hear on Facebook about a Mountie's death by suicide because he had PTSD and had seen a person be beheaded by a Greyhound bus! And you can sympathize with the guy first and his family second.

 

[rainy_daze]

When you decide you don't want to read about a PTSD suicide because it's too much to handle, and you want to protect yourself.

When you mostly hear the news from others, because sometimes the news is too painful.

 

[intothelight]

You forgot to shut the refrigerator door and it starts "beeping" because you ran to get your cell phone. At the same time the dryer buzzes and the preheat notice on the oven goes off. An e-mail makes the phone go again and you get stressed because all of the noise and the demands....appliances are evil!:cautious:

 

[Changing4Best]

You forgot that your laundry was in the dryer and your neighbor is ticked off that she had to use the expensive dryer. Then when you come out your door she is coming out of the laundry room across the hall, (you finally recalled your laundry), and she spooks you, as you did not expect anyone to be there.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

When you're feeling triggered and anxious and a little bit like you're starting to dissociate while you're taking food out of the refrigerator for dinner. And you close the refrigerator turn around lean against the counter and use some grounding tools to try to calm down. And when you finish you look around and realize you left a bowl of pasta sauce on the counter that was supposed to have gone back in the refrigerator.

 

[Changing4Best]

When you take your dog out and smell a skunk and hightail it back into the house before the dog has time to do the other "thing".

 

[Deleted member 19804]

When your dad tousling your hair as he walks by you causes a fearful shock through your whole body so strong, that you freeze on the spot for a few seconds.