You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Friday]

... but what kind of an asshole would insult the knives spirit, not you.

Rings so true

Also, when it's more important to stay on my weapon's good side, than on a persons. I owe them a debt. The person? Not so much. People can be made to understand. A weapons trust is simple and absolute. I take care of them, they take care of me.

 

[Ronin]

I'm so sorry it does, @FridayJones.

 

[Anrish]

@Kaia: Thank you that I matter...that really means a lot to me today...

 

[Ronin]

@Anrish, you're welcome and not for much, it's just basics.

 

[jaccat]

When the need to see your therapist each week overrides you extreme fear of causing an upset at work.

 

[holdenmonty]

I'm with you there @jaccat when I saw my therapist every week for 10 weeks in a row it drove the people that I work with a little nuts because the vast majority of them was just told that it was a medical appointment so a lot of them were like why is he going to a medical appointment every week... but right now the thing that I think pisses off my supervisor lately because she's been treating me differently is when I take my "wellness walks" where I get away from my desk twice a day for about 10 minutes to clear my head or compose my thoughts and decompress but my therapist told me to take them twice a day and they really do help me be a lot more productive.

 

[jaccat]

None of my bosses know about the therapy. I have just been very firm that that particular part of that particular day I cannot work. I am supposed to be going away for a three day training course but I kicked up such a fuss that they have rearranged it so I'm now going for three seperate days, not including the day I see my therapist. I didn't know it was in me!

 

[holdenmonty]

You know you have ptsd when you are in the bathroom and hear them doing a test of the alarm and even though your eyes see the bathroom your mind sees the bathroom in Afghanistan when a rocket attack happened, and a panic attack happens.

 

[Ronin]

... You're a stranger in every land and that loneliness is all about experiences and nothing geography, or outlook on life you even want to have.
... When you just so wish someone'd punch you and make it stop hurting and the people won't do it because they /know/.
... When care still makes f*ck all sense, you'll try again tomorrow.

 

[Lionheart]

....when your fear and anxiety feel like a solid physical force.

 

[jaccat]

When relaxing makes you anxious.

 

[Ronin]

You figured how to describe your years long issue, but asking for help feels too shameful.
When you're a master of excuses about your healing because you still think you deserve to hurt.
When even vaguely similar names of people hurt just too much and you spend a week in a memory while appearing all tuned in and present.