You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Ellabella44]

when you have to pretend not to read or hear certain triggering words that were yelled at you.

when you need a vacation.... FROM EVERYONE (even people you talk to only online)

 

[Ronin]

When taking that vacation is something you do without regret. It's coming back from it that's more difficult.

 

[holdenmonty]

When relaxing makes you anxious.

I hear you there sometimes when I try to relax all of a sudden I wonder if I should be doing something and then I get anxious that I'm not doing something I should

 

[Recovery4Me]

*When you keep your own bathroom door cracked opened enough to survey who or what may be coming down the hallway.

*A leisurely shower means no breaking and entry happened while you dashed in and out.

*When you make sure the dude who rang your doorbell gets the heck back into the FedEx Truck...before you open the door while checking left and right.

 

[Ronin]

When blaming you for something you couldn't even possibly be at fault for leads you to a long lane of things you were at fault for.
When you do stupid escapist shit right after because you need who you've got left safe.
When you remember how many of your friends you left just to goddamn keep them safe from you and you realize in some dull spot, it hurts.
When you're sick of psychhealth professionals thinking whatever you have of a sob story is painful because it's about you, when all the reasons are other effing people.
When so long later, you reconsider removing that tattoo, because you obviously got it off your skin but not off yourself.

 

[Friday]

Shoot me now ... is not a metaphor.

 

[Ronin]

When ^ inspires different reaction altogether because people here are just too precious for words and too precious for being lost.

 

[jaccat]

When someone says thank you and your immediate first thought is why?

 

[Ronin]

When you always thank. No matter how 'small' things. The smallest things were often those things you needed the most, little details to start processing differently.

 

[Nam]

you are relieved when a caregiver is away because the shame lifts just a little. Then you are relieved when he returns only to feel shame again.

 

[Nighthawk]

When you have been i survival mode and come out feeling like a total a hole. That you believe you are the worst human being on the planet. I hate myself and my reactions

 

[Recovery4Me]

@Nighthawk ...wanted you to know that I hear you... but my finger won't click the like button:hug: because I am sorry you felt :cry: that way. Please be a kind friend to you today.