You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Anrish]

When you don't know how to explain that you cannot participate in a 10 km race because you're mentally not well enough to deal with the pressure .

When you say that you have a lack of sleep and people ask why...and you just say "I always have"....

 

[Gadgie]

When you burst out in tears, for no reason?

Flashbacks come from nowhere, and set you off on one,........ then your on the downward spiral, no sleep, so point in trying.

Your whole mood changes and no matter what you do, nothing is going to pull you out, the worst thing is that you know what's going to happen, but you have no way of stopping it.

Your on a runaway train that nobody can stop, and the driver just sits by the railway tracks, waving you good bye!

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

When your mom says you're fragile and you want to correct her but you know she's right.

 

[Ronin]

When you know snowflakes are fragile too, but have an avalanche of them for a long time and the toughest people are f*cked.

 

[Forgetful]

When you have noise overload from the tv, the dog barking, you've only heard your granddaughter'so favorite song 800 times today and she keeps coming into the kitchen while you're trying to make dinner saying your name so you say what then she just babels. You're stress level sky rockets and you yell at the dog and then have to go outside so you don't take you're frustration out on an innocent 2 year old

 

[Anrish]

When you don't know how to explain why you don't join a running group (would be better for training) - because you're scared of people and of the tension...

 

[Anrish]

When your biggest problem during training is how to cope with physical contact and how to feel your body and let go of all the thoughts controling every move...

 

[Ocean5]

When you get bad health news about a deeply loved relative. First instinct is to go walk for a couple hours, then you're worried you might dissociate. So for safety you lock yourself in apartment... with extra measures to make sure you stay in.

 

[Ellabella44]

Sorry to hear @Ocean5.

 

[Changing4Best]

I'm celebrating having had 2 good nights of sleep in a row, which is kind of rare for me.

 

[Anrish]

@SheilaKathy : Congratulations to your nights filled with sleep.

When someone takes your hand and while walking your hand hits again something...the other person apologizes and you just say "Don't worry. Just my hand" ...and you embrace the little pain deep inside - and don't really care about a bruise.

 

[Ronin]

When you wish dreams stopped reminding you of your past, because they're a reminder how bloody useless you are now, and how many things are there to regret. :banghead:

In the same time, avoiding them, you know won't work. Sleep deprivation brings dissociation about the easiest of all.