You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Ocean5]

sabotage your own happiness unknowingly.

Uh, all I wanted was love, and sabotaged it. Before I even knew I had ptsd and other trauma disorders. The regrets...

 

[Lionheart]

@Ocean5

:hug::hug:'s if you accept them.

LIonheart777

 

[iamexisisting-z.l]

you don't know where 8 years of your life went

 

[Lionheart]

When you are more afraid of living than of dying.

When you see a golden opportunity but are too afraid to take it.

When being in love (relationships) brings up all of your triggers.

When you have been disabled with it for 16 years ( technically 17+)

 

[iamexisisting-z.l]

When being in love (relationships) brings up all of your triggers.

Here here

 

[Ronin]

When you write to dear people 'to be honest, years long continuation of that situation destroyed everything I was so brilliant at, but I don't give a damn, because it didn't destroy /me/, so I'm sticking around.'

And contemplate for an hour if it sounds too pathetic to be sent off, or if you're still good with sticking to truth wherever you can get it.

 

[Anrish]

When you are more angry than worried about a suspect because he threatens his ex-wife he would commit suicide...but just uses the threat to get his will.

When you start to think about your own try to commit suicide because of that eejit.

When you think : "Should've down it back then - wouldn't have had to face so much bad stuff"....

 

[Ronin]

Oh @Anrish. Relating.

I tend to think of all the botched attempts and how I'd never get to meet nice people (Significant Look At You) I've met if I succeeded.

True, I'd also not have met a few shitheads, but they're not who matters. The jewels of care & sun in the world do. (Another Significant Look.)

 

[Anrish]

@Cashew : Thank you...your words really mean a lot - and you changed my perspective with them. I cannot say that I feel really glad that I didn't succeed but I don't feel completely sad to be alive anymore. ...small progress, but a progress.

 

[Ronin]

but I don't feel completely sad to be alive anymore.

That's amazing news, and enough for the moment I think? Don't have to try for another base in the same day.

I'm for one very glad you're alive. And certain I'm not alone, feeling that way.

 

[Anrish]

@Cashew: :hug::hug::hug:

When you try to avoid events with social interaction and get nervous when people you like....keep eye contact.

 

[Recovery4Me]

When among the many similarities of symptoms, you begin to recognize the vast differences as well. Thus among the comfort of community & acceptance, begin to recognize yourself as more than an PTSD cluster f*ck.