Hello! I think I have introduced myself on too many forums, because I feel rude if I don't use more explanation points than I think are actually necessary.
I have only recently been diagnosed with PTSD. I have struggled with mental illness for most of my life. At the end of last year, I was nearly hospitalized. My gp thought it was necessary, but the intake doctor thought it would be more harmful than helpful. My therapist has recently added a diagnosis of PTSD. I have already been diagnosed with depression and anxiety.
Growing up, my parents were neglectful and emotionally abusive. They would go months without speaking to me, and I was left to deal with major events in my family by myself. I usually did not know where they were and had to rely on myself for food and money from a very young age.
My father always had signs of mental illness, but I only recently was able to recognize that. After I graduated from high school, his condition got a lot worse. I believe now that I was lied to about his diagnosis. When family stepped in to get him help, he was manic, delusional, and unable to take care of himself. My PTSD mostly comes from the period that I was one of his primary caretakers.
Starting the process of getting diagnosed and beginning therapy has been really stressful. I have been thinking about stuff that I definitely repressed. I am really good at avoidance, and I think that now that a hole has been poked in the wall that I keep around this stuff that I am having a hard time keeping the feelings, memories, and questions to an amount that I have time to talk about with my therapist. Yesterday, I was so overwhelmed that I was shaking and physically ill. I am really hoping that a place like this will help me deal with everything.
I have only recently been diagnosed with PTSD. I have struggled with mental illness for most of my life. At the end of last year, I was nearly hospitalized. My gp thought it was necessary, but the intake doctor thought it would be more harmful than helpful. My therapist has recently added a diagnosis of PTSD. I have already been diagnosed with depression and anxiety.
Growing up, my parents were neglectful and emotionally abusive. They would go months without speaking to me, and I was left to deal with major events in my family by myself. I usually did not know where they were and had to rely on myself for food and money from a very young age.
My father always had signs of mental illness, but I only recently was able to recognize that. After I graduated from high school, his condition got a lot worse. I believe now that I was lied to about his diagnosis. When family stepped in to get him help, he was manic, delusional, and unable to take care of himself. My PTSD mostly comes from the period that I was one of his primary caretakers.
Starting the process of getting diagnosed and beginning therapy has been really stressful. I have been thinking about stuff that I definitely repressed. I am really good at avoidance, and I think that now that a hole has been poked in the wall that I keep around this stuff that I am having a hard time keeping the feelings, memories, and questions to an amount that I have time to talk about with my therapist. Yesterday, I was so overwhelmed that I was shaking and physically ill. I am really hoping that a place like this will help me deal with everything.
