One Month Post Recent Trauma Blues

[Seasounds]

Support welcome.

I just hate this phase, when these post trauma symptoms are settled in and predictable, while I chip away at dealing with them and wait for 'that fine day' when the will go down to a dull roar.

Don't you just hate this phase? I do.

Today, while at a bank, I jump as glass doors begin to clamor behind me, and move to the far corner of the room.

Hate this phase. To explain or not to explain. To take more meds and feel sedated, or take the same amount and be a nervous nellie. To decide what 'extra psychological and extra psychiatric' self-help activity to do and that I can afford, to help me.

With each unexpected anxiety flash, internally, at I first use profane explicatives. At least writing this calms me down enough to remember that my brain, is just doing its protective duty, after having my life threatened one month ago.

That 'one fine day' will eventually come.

Please share what gave you hope until your acute symposium simmered down.

 

[VioletButterfly]

I'm still in the throws of this. Still on hyper-alert and very reactive to all of my triggers. The only time I truly do feel "safe" is when I can connect and draw close into God. To me, I think it's going to take getting some structure in place in my life to help me settle down in real-time. At that point, then maybe I can address the complex trauma I have on board. This has been the struggle for the past decade and it has only served to get worse. So, I do what I can each day to help get myself to a better place. I can see, on most days, that I have made a tinch of progress, but also allow that this is going to take time and a great deal of walking in faith and trusting in God as I don't control a lot of what is going on. I can only make efforts to better situate myself. Maybe it's a sense of control that will settle me down? I don't know if would help you or not - thinking about what you are doing to help yourself, what does make you feel safe in life and what you do control in your life. Also just having faith that you will get to a better place where life gets to a new normal for you.

I'm so sorry you had your life threatened. I can't even imagine how scary that would be. Praying for healing, strength and peace for you. VB