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Hi there,
thought I'd write a thread about this because I need to vent, although I'm sure many of you can relate.
I unfortunately left another job yesterday because it was harmful for my state of mind, ptsd-wise. I was working with a commercial moving and installation company for the government. The problem is that I was forced to interact and be surrounded by hundreds of people every week, which coupled with my symptoms, is not a good idea.
I got the job 2 months ago by the way.
One of the hardest symptoms I have to deal with is an extreme sensitivity to noise (recently posted a thread about it). If people around me make a lot of sudden noise, it'll send me right off the edge and I have to walk away from the individual(s) responsible. Thankfully I monitor myself and 90% of the time I'm able to walk away from the situation before I ''freak out''.
Yesterday I had a shift in one of the warehouses and I was working with another employee (one of the rare shifts where it's ''supposed'' to be relatively quiet). Then for 2 hours straight, he was organizing a bunch of steel plates and pieces (for desks and what not) and started to slam and throw everything around, making very loud sudden noise, repeatedly. After 2 hours I couldn't take it any more, threw a chair across one of the isles and sat in a bathroom stall for 20 minutes, trying to regain composure.
This wasn't the first time I've felt this way at work and had to walk away (in fact this would happen 3/4 of my shifts), considering 90% of people are noisy, although unaware (it's innocent I know, unless they're genuinely angry).
I called my boss and came clean about the fact that I struggle with PTSD, he was very cold and did not care about anything except what his client will think if I walk away. He said there's nothing he can do about it, he can't tell people not to be noisy, so I told him I can't do it (at this point the whole thing had set me off so badly that I was in tears because of frustration with my life, although trying to hold back, it was embarassing).
After everything was said and done, it was over, so here I am jobless once again because I'm unable to cope with my symptoms at work. I'm starting meds very soon, so I'm hoping it'll make a difference.
thought I'd write a thread about this because I need to vent, although I'm sure many of you can relate.
I unfortunately left another job yesterday because it was harmful for my state of mind, ptsd-wise. I was working with a commercial moving and installation company for the government. The problem is that I was forced to interact and be surrounded by hundreds of people every week, which coupled with my symptoms, is not a good idea.
I got the job 2 months ago by the way.
One of the hardest symptoms I have to deal with is an extreme sensitivity to noise (recently posted a thread about it). If people around me make a lot of sudden noise, it'll send me right off the edge and I have to walk away from the individual(s) responsible. Thankfully I monitor myself and 90% of the time I'm able to walk away from the situation before I ''freak out''.
Yesterday I had a shift in one of the warehouses and I was working with another employee (one of the rare shifts where it's ''supposed'' to be relatively quiet). Then for 2 hours straight, he was organizing a bunch of steel plates and pieces (for desks and what not) and started to slam and throw everything around, making very loud sudden noise, repeatedly. After 2 hours I couldn't take it any more, threw a chair across one of the isles and sat in a bathroom stall for 20 minutes, trying to regain composure.
This wasn't the first time I've felt this way at work and had to walk away (in fact this would happen 3/4 of my shifts), considering 90% of people are noisy, although unaware (it's innocent I know, unless they're genuinely angry).
I called my boss and came clean about the fact that I struggle with PTSD, he was very cold and did not care about anything except what his client will think if I walk away. He said there's nothing he can do about it, he can't tell people not to be noisy, so I told him I can't do it (at this point the whole thing had set me off so badly that I was in tears because of frustration with my life, although trying to hold back, it was embarassing).
After everything was said and done, it was over, so here I am jobless once again because I'm unable to cope with my symptoms at work. I'm starting meds very soon, so I'm hoping it'll make a difference.
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