I Jumped Yesterday

[jesse]

Prozac made my depression much worse. The worse it got the more the psych nurse increased the dosage until I burned my boss's truck down. It really sent me into full on PTSD freak out and severe depression. I am not bipolar even though that sounds manic. Depakote and Clonazapen help. So Joseph maybe the SSRIs are contributing to your depression? Don't beat yourself up for self medicating. I hope you start feeling some relief. Maybe recognizing the cyclical pattern and that it has improved in the past helps? Just one day at a time kind of thing. Alcohol takes away the stop mechanism so please take care and try to have self compasssion.

 

[Joseph King]

Prozac made my depression much worse. The worse it got the more the psych nurse increased the dosage until...

Hi Jesse,
Thank you. I have almost one week on 60mg of duloxetine per day. Duloxetine is an SNRI, and have studied about the difference, so we will see over the following weeks. 2mg of clonazepam at night.
Feeling stable, sleeping well, only moderately lethargic. Sidenote about Prozac is over the counter in Mexico. Duloxetine is not (Cymbalta)
Have a great day,
Joseph :)

 

[jesse]

I understand how you feel Joseph. I had a failed attempt several months ago. It was really quite miraculous I did not die. I started the depakote after this attempt and it helped for awhile and probably still is. I am looking into ECT which is very effective apparently despite the stigma from movies like "One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest". I have to go to Spokane for this which is quite far away from where I live. Do you have access to a hospital that provides ECT? I know it has a terrible stigma but it has a 85% recovery rate according to the Sacred Heart Hospital website in Spokane WA. The voltage used is much lower so the memory loss is usually only temporary and transient. SNRIs unfortunately did not help me either. I hope you find some relief soon Joseph.

As far as the cyclic nature of your depression are there anniversay dates that may be triggering during these time? June is always a tough month for me after years of therapy repressed sexual abuse came to light and it happened right after school was out when I was very young.