Hello, I'm new here and I've dealt with multiple traumas from early childhood on through most of my life. There isn't much of my life that hasn't been "painted by some sort of trauma". I will be starting EMDR therapy next week. I created my "safe place" today with the therapist. I basically was told by my therapist since I literally have nobody to lean on, talk to, no friends etc., that I needed to join an on-line support group so she will have some way of making sure I'm okay during the week because I'm alone most of the time and have no family living close by. I've been a survivor all of my life but after losing my Mom almost three years ago, my body broke down on me and so did my ability to cope well with things. I just lost my Father this year and that nearly did me in. I really wasn't ready to feel like an orphan I guess. I'm the youngest of 4 siblings and I'm only close with one of them.
I'm just ready to get my life back and start living again. I used to be very outgoing and now I can barely get out to go to my therapy sessions.
My traumas range from molested as a child through early teen years, abuse of all shapes and sizes from physical, mental to sexual abuse etc. I survived a horrific car crash that everyone thought I died in when they saw my car and realized it was mine. I'm a survivor and will continue to find ways to survive! The hard part is my kids are grown and they don't "rely on mom" anymore and with my parents gone, I'm not needed there. So it's difficult finding a place where I'm needed and wanted in life right now. OH did I mention I had a husband...yes, I did. He's struggling with all of this as well but he's part of all of this (a small part) but none the less...still a part of it. We're working on it but right now, I'm more focused on getting my life back and eventually I will focus on our marriage (which he hasn't focused on in a long time)...with that being said...our marriage hasn't been just "peaches and cream" for a long time!
Wishing everyone a great night! oh and I'm 48 so I've been dealing with a lot of this stuff for a very long time...I guess that's part of the reason why my body hates me and I'm in constant pain (no meds for me because I don't do well with meds). :)
I'm just ready to get my life back and start living again. I used to be very outgoing and now I can barely get out to go to my therapy sessions.
My traumas range from molested as a child through early teen years, abuse of all shapes and sizes from physical, mental to sexual abuse etc. I survived a horrific car crash that everyone thought I died in when they saw my car and realized it was mine. I'm a survivor and will continue to find ways to survive! The hard part is my kids are grown and they don't "rely on mom" anymore and with my parents gone, I'm not needed there. So it's difficult finding a place where I'm needed and wanted in life right now. OH did I mention I had a husband...yes, I did. He's struggling with all of this as well but he's part of all of this (a small part) but none the less...still a part of it. We're working on it but right now, I'm more focused on getting my life back and eventually I will focus on our marriage (which he hasn't focused on in a long time)...with that being said...our marriage hasn't been just "peaches and cream" for a long time!
Wishing everyone a great night! oh and I'm 48 so I've been dealing with a lot of this stuff for a very long time...I guess that's part of the reason why my body hates me and I'm in constant pain (no meds for me because I don't do well with meds). :)
