Brain Spinning Way Too Fast. Anxiety?

[Ronin]

No. The only change was I decreased my Seriquel XR from 250mg a day to 200mg a day and I am having issue rebalancing the Xanax but this is a bit newer then that.

So you HAD in fact medication changes.

As a changed / decreased dose of medication. It takes a while to settle in.

 

[Deleted member 541]

@lostforgottensoul Years ago when I was fairly new to the forum, I basically did the same thing. I realized later it was anxiety, most likely caused from either being triggered or from stressors from reading something that was upsetting to me, but I wasn't dealing with it. Just wondering if this is the reason for your new level of anxiety???

 

[Heather]

@lostforgottensoul ...I'm sorry you are struggling my friend.

I'm sending you soothing thoughts to help you slow things down and find peace.

Love you!

 

[Gs172003]

It's so hard to do sometimes though. The pausing after everything is a wonderful idea. It f...

My husband is also dyslexic. He is very. Very. Slow paced. I'll have to say the dyslexia isn't to blame.. I'd say yeah...the anxiety has alot to do with it. My husband has to realllly think about what he wants to type and it takes him a while. I don't know if that's the case with you. He is also very " it could be worse " kind of guy.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

So you HAD in fact medication changes.

Yeah, sort of a self change. But though there's a rebalancing issue with the Xanax, my anxiety being high has never done this. Even without any meds, it just hasn't.

Meds causing it, like Addrall may, no, don't have any meds that speed things up.

Lowering the Serquel and having a rebalancing issue dates further back then this, happened first.

Could it have caused it? I don't know, maybe. Or maybe it's a crazy amount of anxiety that isn't being controled. But why that doesn't make sense is Xanax .50 mg shouldn't put me to sleep. That happens if I take it when I am completely calm. But maybe.

being triggered or from stressors from reading something that was upsetting to me, but I wasn't dealing with it. Just wondering if this is the reason for your new level of anxiety???

Not what I'm reading here. I've been triggered a few times during this but I've been able to walk away and calm that. When I'm triggered I can usually feel that amount of anxiety in my chest and almost always get very angry which is my go to emotion. I used to tailspin but haven't really done that for a while.

I know I had a strong reaction to a Facebook message the night before last and I can see how this was me avoiding that...feeling that. Or maybe that's me triggered? I'm not sure.

I also think I took the remainder of what I was dealing with and stuffed it as I've been feeling very content which is VERY odd. And my brain was spinning insanely fast during this content feeling. I've never felt content before and I also never dealt with any of this stuff which is what makes it more odd.

I'll have to say the dyslexia isn't to blame.

No, def not. Cause my brain always auto paces me without me even realizes it.

It's not always slow and sometimes I go back up and re-read without realizing it. I've always been dyslexic but this is new so I def agree that it's not the dyslexia.

Though, if I am ever going fast, I can see it causing me to miss read stuff and type stuff wrong.

Since I've been forcing myself slow down everything, it's been intresting. But, so far working. I come on here after and I'm spinning a little bit slower. Not a lot but a little bit.

 

[Gs172003]

Yeah, sort of a self change. But though there's a rebalancing issue with the Xanax, my anxie...

I hope you feel better

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Me too @Zoogal. I am doing a little bit better with this. It's @Ragdoll Circus's very awesome advise to slow down everything. It does mean I have to do things a little sooner but it's working. So far anyway. Im wondering how i am going to do this at work, on calls. But maybe this focing myself to slow everything down will cause an automatic slow down on calls.

 

[joeylittle]

my anxiety being high has never done this. Even without any meds, it just hasn't.

If it's helpful for you to know this - posting excessively quickly is something that you've done in the past, here, before you started Seroquel. I'd need to look back and double-double check, and can do if you'd like me to.

So, while you might be observing this phenomenon for the first time, I can tell you that it's happened before. In my observation, some of it has been what I'd call reactivity. As in, it's a heated conversation, and all the members who are heated start posting in quick succession without really reading/processing what's being said. That has always struck me only as an issue with managing emotional reaction.

But the going too fast thing is something you've referred to before now.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

But the going too fast thing is something you've referred to before now.

Yes but there are new elements in this. Posting too fast in the past, usually was reactivity to a post or a situation, not brain spinning this fast 24/7. Before, if i was able to disengage, it slowed. That's not happening here.

What is also new is reading posts but being completely gone. Not thinking about anything but gone.

Another very new element is talking faster than my mouth can work and tripping over my words to the point where I can't speak clearly at all. I'm doing this at work and also completely spacing out on a call and asking a customer to repeat themselves over and over.

Not being able to pick out a very simple thought. And feeling oddly content though all of these things are hitting me still. All the issues that completely tore through my life like a tornado is still going on but i felt content. I got a facebook message that brought up something from before i joined and instantly, without warning or thoughts or feelings in between, dropped to suicidal about to jump in front of a train.

I agree that i struggle with fast reactivity but there are very new elememts in this.

It make sense to me that i stuffed everything that recently happened and is happening which led to feeling oddly content. The message likely triggered me, badly. And the brain spinning going to fast stuff makes sense that it's about avoidence as I don't think, much, or feel anything at all when i am moving that fast and the constant zoning out, spacing out, a low level disassociation most likely.

In any case, slowing everything I do is helping a bit. Have no idea how my therapist appointment is going to go as I've been wasting my appointments lately and not talking about much.

ETA: Forgot to say thanks @joeylittle. You are correct in having reactivity issues in the past. My issue, mostly, that I've been working very hard on here is disengaging.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

@joeylittle, i was just thinking too. Usually, in the past on here, my fast reactivity is a fast reactivity to anger. Spinning but rageful. Also not happening now. I am posting fast but feel nothing. Certianly not anger and like biting or whatever that i usually do. I feel the anxiety now and my brain is spinning super fast now but if you'd ask what i feel my answer would be nothing or i don't know.

 

[joeylittle]

That all makes sense, @lostforgottensoul. And because I'm not certain on the timeline - I'll ask, how does this line up with the recent sleeping in longer than you wanted to on (I think) this past Saturday? (I'm going on memory here) - you had mentioned the 'wet rag' feeling, prior to decreasing your Seroquel...but I seem to recall you still had trouble recently waking.

That's not necessarily in conflict with also having racing thoughts - I'm just asking whether it's more specific than 24/7, whether there's a pattern of fast vs. slow that you can identify, as it might be useful.

(I'm glad you see I'm not trying to come after you with this stuff - I just read the whole forum, and so see patterns from that perspective; sometimes useful, sometimes not)

 

[lostforgottensoul]

(I'm glad you see I'm not trying to come after you with this stuff - I just read the whole forum, and so see patterns from that perspective; sometimes useful, sometimes not)

No, i know you're trying to help.

I'll ask, how does this line up with the recent sleeping in longer than you wanted to on (I think) this past Saturday? (I'm going on memory here) - you had mentioned the 'wet rag' feeling, prior to decreasing your Seroquel...but I seem to recall you still had trouble recently waking.

Great question. Ok so the wet rag feeling had been a long time. A month, maybe a bit more. About the entire length of time I was 250mg. I replied to the Seriquel thread when i increased to get an exact date but just to guess, a month and a half.

I decreased it the day after i got it finally refilled, the 8th. So decreased it that night. Wed, thurs, fri im like WTF? I feel amazing. Slept 12 hrs the night of fri to sat. So id this spinning started mon maybe. I know that my posts started reading wrong maybe 5 days ago. So to me it doesnt fully line up with the serquel. Didnt happen at the exact same time, i dont think.

The issue with timing is i didnt notice it right away. My posts started reading wrong at around election day ish and i started trying to figure out why. Then i noticed a few days ago that i was speed reading everything and noticed i posting fast last night when i said it about vaping. You had said i didnt need to post right away and i noticed i didnt have a reason to post fast and then yesterday i noticed the tripping over words, zoning out, effecting my job.

The facebook message was the night before last.

So i dont know if it all happened at once or slowly started to happen.

Sorry for the ramblings, i honestly dont know when it all started to happen as i dont think i had the self awareness right away of what was going on of that makes sense.