Random Thoughts

[Uceta]

Regaining sense of self after post apocolyptic nervous break down, I lost my sense of self almost completely. it was difficult to feel anything. stated something to my mom about it today, and she didnt understand how someone could forget who they are. so i dropped it. Is this something i cant talk to her about, or perhaps she doesnt quite understand what i went through and what happened to me in my brain and body and how long it takes to get yourself back again?
I'v been finding myslef thinking about all the things i used to do and if I can once again try to do those things I could perhaps put the pieces back together.
Maybe a visit to New mexico where my husband passed, go back to volunteering at the food bank where i was happy to be helping others.
My mind still slides around alot, some Ptsd stuff, some feelings of nothingness sometimes, like emptyness, not knowing who i am or why i am here, I work, i try to fill up time, but hard to think about the future in terms of things I was looking forward to before apocolyptic break down.
Just trying to the pieces back together.

 

[Iluz]

long it takes to get yourself back again?

Some times decades, some times a lifetime.

Two thoughts: every piece matters, & life matters above identity.

It's good you're alive and as healthy as you are; work on keeping up with that. Who you are will come back along side, value the whole (life) over the partialness (identity, personality, even though they're not 'little'.)

 

[Ebejif]

While I don't know why it happened to you, I do think I understand what you are talking about. I broke down and have yet to fully recover