How To Dig Yourself Out Of The Mess And Aftermath Of Trauma

[Bloomy]

I dont feel so traumatized anymore. I feel willing and able to move on.
Just that I got my self into deep shit I must manage to solve to get a decent life to live.

The challenge now is that the goverment of my country is making it more and more difuclt to dig your self out of problems like unemployment and poverty.

Was going to apply for schoolbooks today but they have changed the way of applying so it seems like I cant get support for this without some for me huge challenges to apply. Meanig extra work.

The goverment are cutting back on welfare and they are making it more and more dificult to get any exonomcal help at all.

Fex they wont cover economical expenses for travel to school unless its more then 6 km. That means that you are supposed to walk those 6 km if you cant afford yourself to take the bus. Or bike the uphill in winter in snow and ice. Not that I really mind to bike, but it reminice of a poor country and not one on welfare. And when the snow storm hits Id like to be able to take the bus i cant really afford to.

Im depending on this money. Im so poor that without it will be a real hard struggle to get by this.

This makes me worried that its to late to rescue my life. Or rather - Im shit scared. Its really hard to get a job here now as its up to 500 applicants for one job position in a low range job.

I shoud have fixed my life years ago before they decided to cut back on everything that could help you move on. But I wasnt able too.

I decided to create this post cause many here talk of present traumas or symptom of traumas, but I havent found so much on the after math of trauma and about what you can do if you first destroyed your life being traumatized ie how to get back on your feets from utter poverty

 

[hodge]

Big :hug:s, @Bloomy. I'm about ready to finally get some sleep. I'm pretty braindead and don't have anything useful to say atm, but saw this and just wanted to let you know I feel for you.

 

[Ronin]

Is it possible for you to share schoolbooks with other classmate?

Eventually borrow and copy & distribute among whole the class? Or study from borrowed books with extensive notes?

Also, can you study the same topics from other materials? Online is an excellent resource pool for a variety of subjects, it might be possible to get the same articles basic data somewhere else, and clarify the gaps through classes.

 

[Ronin]

Its really hard to get a job here

Do you have an option for being self-employed? Starting your own business?

 

[Bloomy]

@hodge thanks - encouragment is appreciated - good night :hug:

 

[Bloomy]

@Ronin even with this money I couldnt afford to buy the books. I would use them for houserent and for food. That was my actual intention. So sorry I wrote it wrong, but its a little bit complicated or a little bit to much for me and I get confused. Im in a big messy situation right now and it will take all the guts I have to see this through and hopefully make a worthy life.

Yes Ive been thinking about making my own busniess again. I just have to find out how to do it since the goverment has declared me bancrupt and there for I also face some challenges to make the business.

Feel like a rat trapped in a corner desperately looking for a way out

 

[eloc]

I really struggled with getting support from welfare - just the processes were too complicated - I tried doing UNi to get back to something of a normal life without the risk of taking a job - I struggled with that as well .... I managed to ask the University in Australia if I could finish the last three subjects where I am where it is considerably cheaper - because I am no longer a potential client of the pay for uni system that exists - they kind of agreed but still I am not up to the challenge of setting all that up - if it could just by magic be done then I would start. Have you considered visiting the school and seeing what assistance they have for students living with disabilities - it may extend to helping you practically with applying for grants and support. The idea of all the hurdles is overwhelming so maybe make a list of what possibilities for getting support exists and work your way through it one at a time over weeks and years - I am still thinking about uni and it is about 3 months since I got the positive signs from the australian UNI and now 6 years since I started the course with two more years to finsih the last three. You can have extended periods to complete courses and that can help with doing part time work or simplyjust taking longer to get there or only going on two days. Online study was probably the only way I managed - but ironically chat boards got me worked up and I would have to take time outs before posting. Now it is the cost and how to organise a cheaper alternative - maybe think about trying some of the great fee online courses and see how you go and then work up to one that involves transport attendance etc and all associated costs.

 

[Ronin]

Feel like a rat trapped in a corner desperately looking for a way out

You're not trapped, it's just difficult :tup:

What about going to the teachers & school libraries?

You wouldn't be the first student that's desperately trying to meet their duties and has obstacles in the way. I bet they'd try to help out if seeing the effort; if they're prickly about it, appeal to them as teachers and authority that you have so high hopes and respect for.

 

[Bloomy]

@Ronin Your bet failed. No appeal will help. Been there tried that and Im done. Im on my own. To find the way out of this. I cant spend any more time on my knees begging and pleading as its both destructive to dignity as well as it doesnt help wallet cause they simply brush me of as they ve done for years now.

Again its not so much about the books since that one I could solve somehow, but the money I can get if I manage to hit jack pot will help me to pay house rent and buy food. Which is more urgent matter.

Im thinking I might be my own biggest obstacle. Slef esteem hurting and Im being self destructive.

 

[eloc]

I hope you find the help you need - in short term crisis centre or food hubs should be able to get you emergency food - the social welfare should be able to provide list of agencies that assist with different economic needs. sorry not much help - poverty is a great stressor.

 

[Bloomy]

@eloc and anyother reading - please please dont mention social welfare. They done nothing more then destroy.

And its not about getting food either.

Its about how do I keep faith when the storm sets in that I do have a chanse for a better life................................................................
How do I keep moving on when Im so deep into shit.
Am I my worst enemy not seing and grabbin oportunities? Or is it really a bit rough sailing? Or is it both?

 

[shimmerz]

The challenge now is that the goverment of my country is making it more and more difuclt to dig your self out of problems like unemployment and poverty.

I can completely relate to this. On disability here, in Canada, it is virtually impossible to even secure a place to live, let alone afford bus money to improve one's life.

You would think with someone being so focused on attempting to improve their quality of life, to get off of the 'system', that there would be a process in place to aid the learned helplessness (and then subsequent humiliation by others because we are on the system). I don't understand how this type of system is helpful at all.

My heart goes out to you!