Relationship Seems So Fake But I Read It's So Real....

[Empath16]

Terribly difficult to know that the majority of the days you're with your sufferer they appeared to have functioned as a non-PTSD sufferer and then all of a sudden, the PTSD symptoms take over.

I swear I would've never known he suffered, he masked very well or played along very well. I now reminisce of conversations and actions and it's oh so clear that the symptoms were there when I thought it was all a result of being hurt by other women in the past, never thought it was this serious.

When he told me he didn't love himself, he had too much on his plate (what idk) he wanted to be alone so he could get right emotionally and spiritually, it all seemed like a cop-out....as if he wanted to break-up with me but didn't know how, do he made that up cuz of course I'm thinking, how he go from hugging, kissing, spending time with me & the next day he dump me like he learned I cheated on him.

Each day gets easier to accept that it just wasn't meant to be but damn it, my heart feels the same as it did 12 days ago when it all went down the drain.....

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

The sad thing is that he probably thought he was going to be able to overcome some of his problems.

We can sometimes believe that we are doing better, getting better, and are riding high on positive feelings. Then, something happens, we never know what it will be, and we are running away, as fast as we can!

We "beat ourselves up", angry that we thought, just for a while, that we are WELL! WE CAN LIVE, and LOVE....

But, no....PTSD...once again...life has been stolen away from us...again...

 

[Empath16]

The sad thing is that he probably thought he was going to be able to overcome some of his probl...

I think you're right. He probably had a long stretch without any stressors and then once they started piling up out of no where, he realized he's not as well as he thought. I can say I'm glad he finally started counseling after realizing that his self-help wasn't successful. My hurt heart will eventually heal...

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

:hug:Empath16:hug:
Your heart WILL heal...in the meantime...treat yourself. Buy yourself flowers...a Christmas gift. A piece of jewelry, maybe? I realized, after my 4th marriage, that I should do for myself what I wanted boyfriends or husband to do. He sent me bouquets at work (I was the envy of ALL the girls) He gave me jewelry. I had never had that before.

Nope, come to find out, after being married almost a year, he didn't really want to be married. (In he defense, my little girl passed away a month after we got married, and I changed, and never have returned to the old "normal.") We knew she wouldn't live a long life, so it wasn't really a surprise. Kinda, but not.

In my experience, I can handle one or two stressors...but if I get more than that going on, I am more symptomatic, and start isolating. A coping mechanism, but not a healthy one.

I am glad you are finding out that it isn't/wasn't about you. It's hard to accept that, but I think it's probably the truth. He may have started having deep feelings for you, and it scared the crap out of him.

Blessings, and Peace to you, :hug:
AKJ