Flashback Triggers

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I am having repeated flashbacks but we know there's not a cure to help. I researched an article where repeated flashbacks can cause thoughts of future trigger thoughts. Everytime I research I feel better because it's not only me out here like this

 

[Deleted member 37085]

I am having repeated flashbacks but we know there's not a cure to help. I researched an article w...

@Lauren Taylor - Cure is a very wide and all encompassing word; I believe from ongoing personal experience that although I may not achieve full and total healing (cure), I do know that EMDR Therapy (which works for many, and not all) is helping to decrease flashbacks, and (today's 8th session) I both dread and look forward to - at same time - these powerful EMDR sessions, that are just (tip of iceberg) beginning to rewire my brain (reprogram) and when by rote brain is negative messaging and I'm (mind) is either thinking garbage messaging, EMDR reprogramming is sending out at same time negative messaging is occurring - positive affirmations in mid though, mid-sentence and this is BLOWIN' my mind!

Hope this continues as each session I must expose (horrific) darkness to this hopefully healing process (healing to point of better mental and physiological functioning); and @Lauren Taylor so far I am noticing a difference in rote negative messaging decreasing - I still am dealing with SI thoughts (part of this ptsd) ugh. Having brain stop in mid thought and sentence and change brain's negative thought to positive one - well, it's a miracle for me. For the negative messaging, flasbacks, and beating the poo out of myself - are beyond exhausting and I see light and hope that I will not remain totally and fully caged by my brain's pcptsd and am hopeful that destructive mental messaging (from terrible nightmares and some sick memories) may continue to at some level in my brain - lose some of rote negative messaging control over me. Hugs and love being sent as you read this - to you. (hugs) squeeze oh but not too tightly. JadesJewel

 

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@Lauren Taylor - Cure is a very wide and all encompassing word; I believe from on...

correction: mid-thought (not mid-though lol

 

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@Lauren Taylor - Cure is a very wide and all encompassing word; I believe from on...

Omg!!! Negative messaging yesss that's me! I am so happy I'm not alone! It's like negative thinking all the time in prepared if something happens you will be ready.

 

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Omg!!! Negative messaging yesss that's me! I am so happy I'm not alone! It's like negative thinki...

@Lauren Taylor Yes re: negative (rote) brain messaging - comes out of nowhere! and lies and tells me doom and gloom messaging, also horrible things to me about myself (was programmed by "caregivers" decades ago all the way up until '08) and from what I've read and learned here in this great forum @Lauren Taylor, these messages are very difficult to stop. There are other psychological modalities that have worked and helped members here. D.B.T., Cognitive (Talk) Therapy, crying, begging to God, pleading, cutting, on and on - well nothing has so positively effected these horrible by rote negative messagings than EMDR.

I have a bit of hope today. Not a lot - but just enough hope @Lauren Taylor to go in there again today and sit on couch (8th session) in front of EMDR cascading light bar and follow the the light with my eyes (not moving my head/neck) just following the moving light and listen to doctor as he talks with me ie. "Now, what are you feeling, thinking?) each time cascading light moves back and forth across light board and then vomiting out what was so viciously cruelly programmed into my little girl brain for decades. I have been blessed with this very astute PTSD and EMDR 35 yr. practicing psychologist Specialist(Christian). For quite some time, I prayed to God for this professional, and God answered my prayers. I had been searching and seeking for years - help. Someone help me. God answered. This is not a fix. It is scientifically proven to change brain's wiring and mapping and then re-formatting brain, etc.

I know that after only 8th session @Lauren Taylor that my brain (mind) is (subtle and obvious changes) beginning now - just initially starting to make a Uie (U-Turn) and beginning the process of reprogramming negative (rote) self-destructive messaging in mid (rote) thought and things that my brain is (positivity) kicking in and sending - while negative messaging is playing - and positive messaging is coming out of my lips. Whoa!

So many traumatic memories to process and reprogram - and feels like so little time. So I must work hard today - when I come out my brain will be numb, and you may notice my posts here to others become disjointed a bit while my brain after session is desensitizing horrific trauma and reprogramming (and replacing) with positive affirmative healthy messaging and I tend to sleep more because of this. Plus Saturday, friend's Celebration of LIfe service is being held - don't know if I can go.

Please pray for me, as I continue to pray for you @LaurenTaylor. xoxox (hugs). Peace and Love. (and more hugs). JadesJewel

 

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@Lauren Taylor Yes re: negative (rote) brain messaging - comes out of nowh...

You are awesome! Thank you!

 

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You are too! Actually, I acquire God's awesomeness that He infuses within me - spiritually, and then I try and I do mean only try to spread God's awesomeness in me wherever and whenever I can! (hugs) and hoping and praying that your day goes w/o super stress and wishing you a swell day. JadesJewel