Sufferer First Time Here.

[KatieO]

@KatieO there we're 12 minutes between your first and second post - this is a huge s...

That was kind of mean. Maybe I am in the wrong place.

 

[KatieO]

Hi @KatieO how are you today?

Who cares, I just got schooled by Suzetig.

 

[KatieO]

@KatieO there we're 12 minutes between your first and second post - this is a huge s...

I didn't come here for scolding or rejection, I came here out of loneliness and desperation. 12 minutes is a really long time when it's late and you are dying inside.

 

[Deleted member 34328]

Who cares, I just got schooled by Suzetig.

I know for certain that what @Suzetig said is true regarding the size of the forum. People are here because they do care, will listen and support you to the best of their abilities. I certainly wouldn't have stuck around myself if it weren't true.

However, it's not hotline. It's a forum. Someone is ALWAYS around. Regardless, whatever it is that's happening or going on in your life right now, you're more than welcome to share.

I get it that you're angry and probably are going through a ton of crap. I have offered to listen and chat with you.

Your call.

 

[Deleted member 34328]

I didn't come here for scolding or rejection, I came here out of loneliness and desperation. 12 minutes...

I know. It's an eternity. Especially when you're desperate and feel out of options. Like I said, your call.

 

[Suzetig]

I didn't come here for scolding or rejection, I came here out of loneliness and desperation. 12 minutes is a really long time when it's late and you are dying inside.

Yes it can feel like a very long time, but in fact it's no time at all - when you're really struggling it's easy to lose sight of that. To come on to a site and say you're being rejected when no one replies within 12 minutes is a congnitive distortion - effectively your mind lying to you. I have no interest in scolding or rejecting you but not is it helpful for me to buy into the idea that you're being rejected when that isn't what happening.

I hope you do stay around and get to know the place a bit better.

 

[KatieO]

I know. It's an eternity. Especially when you're desperate and feel out of options. Like I said, you...

I was hoping for a kind word, not lectures. Wrong place, my bad. Maybe you can be easier on the next newbie looking for something. I'm unregistering.

 

[Esterio]

Who cares, I just got schooled by Suzetig.

Hi KatieO Thanks for the post.
I think that Suzetig. was just trying to let you know that nothing happens right away here. It takes time for people to respond. As suffers of PTSD here we all feel much the same as you all though all are stories are different, we share a lot of the same symptoms. Give it a little bit of time and you will see everyone is here for support and just not to feel alone. Lots of good supportive people are here. Remember we are here for the same reasons we need to talk also and we need to feel not so all alone on this journey we have found our selves on. Hope this helps. I'm pretty new here too but I am starting to feel like I belong here and I haven't felt that way for a long long time :-)
peace be safe

 

[Suzetig]

I hope you don't leave but it's your decision to make. There are lots of kind words on your thread - and mine aren't intended to be unkind.

 

[FireSign8]

I lost count of the number of times I have said I wanted to kill myself. Life rarely gives any of us what we want when we want it. so, I am still alive & dealing with getting older & getting to see my abusers die one by one from their old age & physical ailments. All the crap they did to me & countless others had a worse effect on them & I refuse to allow any of them to continue abusing me from the grave.

That said, I am new to this website myself, but after dealing with a few other websites over the past 10 years I have been on the internet long enough to have a bit of a thick skin when it comes to verbal abuse. This website has understanding people who seem to be willing to share their inner most thoughts with the world & I find it is helpful to just read on the days I'm confused about life. Someone always seems to have it worse than I do & someone also seems to have it better on other days.

SOOOO, I use this website as a tool to add to my toolbox on the days I feel I need a tune-up or just want to bang my head into a wall. Choices.:banghead: Choices we make can be changed. Suicide is/was just a last resort for me. I screwed it up too & now I'm happy about that failure!

 

[ladee]

@FireSign8 , welcome and a very powerful post! Thank you for sharing and very glad to know the community is helping you.
Very glad you found us and thank you for a powerful post!

 

[Esterio]

I lost count of the number of times I have said I wanted to kill myself. Life rarely gives any of us...

Welcome FireSign8
Thanks for the post. I'm New here too and have found lots of great folks ready to bear there soul to you if thats what it takes. Very good place to be with people who know what is going on as they are living as we are with PTSD I sorry for the pain that brought you here. I am living the same experience as you watching my perpetrators die of old age and other decease. One Lived to be 104 years old the bastard in comfort too. It makes my blood boil.
Peace be safe