Anyone Else Feel Like This?

[Deleted member 37720]

For the last few months it's felt like my feelings have been berried inside me and I can still feel that their there but can't bring them to the surface. Anyone else feel like this?

 

[Deleted member 38242]

Often in fact with ptsd it feels like there is always an undercurrent of emotion. When there brought to the surface then actuon can be taken, but just beneath makes me feel like I want to rip them out just to be over and done with it. Although in the past when I have done that it rips me to shreads. As I posted this I realized exercise really helps with that, and yoga. It's been a few months, and the holidays always rock people a little emotionally. I think its time for me to get that back under control. Maybe excercise, and meditation can help you process them without having to pull them up and out alowing the body chemistry to shift them until they are ready to shift?

 

[Deleted member 33052]

@PuzzledLuke, I felt this way for most of my life. I wasn't able to deal with all of the pain inside me, so I kept a very tight lid on it. Every once in a while - usually when I was drinking - some of the pain would escape and consume me like fire.

A couple of years ago, though, I lost the ability to contain it. Well, I never really understood that I was containing it until the PTSD was triggered. Now it just pours out of me.

I think that's why the sufferers here are so very authentic - what we feel, we express.

 

[henamedmeowl]

Probably about 99% of the time I feel like this. I have only been able to feel when I am with someone that I feel safe enough to fall apart with and that was once in my entire life. The 1% of time that I do feel I am on the verge of suicide. Hugs. I think it's common with ptsd and disassociation.

 

[Deleted member 33052]

@henamedmeowl. ***hug***

 

[henamedmeowl]

@Mal Content Thanks you :-)

 

[katz]

Often in fact with ptsd it feels like there is always an undercurrent of emotion. When there brought...

"an undercurrent of emotion" What a wonderful way to describe what I feel! Thanks.

I can feel the "current" moving and flowing all the time. But, just below the surface. Sometimes it is ice cold, some times it is steaming hot. It is hard to control and to keep it underneath the surface.
Mine is often flowing so fast, that I'm afraid to even go near those "rapids". I'm always afraid that I will be "washed away".

 

[physicist13]

indeed, in fact this is not at all uncommon for me (or other depressed/ traumatized people)

 

[katz]

Probably about 99% of the time I feel like this. I have only been able to feel when I am with some...

(( hugs ))

 

[Freedomfighter]

For the last few months it's felt like my feelings have been berried inside me and I can still feel...

Yep, happens a lot, I know what my feelings are but often afraid to voice them because so many strangers have violated me in more ways than one.
Being stalked sure does not help, I want to concentrate on what is right, often confuse symptoms, but getting better.