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5 Things I'm Thinking Today

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1. Really not doing well mentally today. About to take the dog for a walk, up by the pond in the snow. Hoping that will help. Not having any patience for him though and worried about that. Taking out my issues on him is absolutely not acceptable. Will have to cut the walk short if it looks like that will happen
2. We've had a lot of snow this winter and I am sort of tired of it but I also still really like it. Weird.
3. Bummed I am back in a thumb brace, but glad I bought this smaller one. It's so much more comfortable. Now I just have to be good and wear it. The doc did say three months. I'm only half way there and my job involves a lot of grasping.
4. crap, the weather has turned into freezing rain. That I hate. It's beautiful, but trees and powerlines coming down, not so much fun.
5. Excited. Today is my first night volunteering at the homeless shelter. As f*cked up as I am, I am still looking forward to this. And grateful we have a place for folks to go. This weather is brutal.
 
1) I had my first panic attack in years last night when sh*t hit the fan
2) I'm not totally sure how to handle these b/c i've had maybe 2 in the last 10 years so it was pretty horrifying
3) My dog wasn't around, which made it harder
4) My ex was stoned so was not helpful for a while and had to sober up to come and get me so I could sleep somewhere with heat (it was 39 degrees last night making me extremely angry at my mother, my abuser who owns the house that I pay money to and will not refuse to pay money to)
5) I hate my mother she is the spawn of Satan and I'm not sure why I'm demon spawn

hope you're sleeping peacefully @SophiaWisdom
You're sweet - I actually had my first panic attack in years when both the electricity went out in my crappy living situation on top of the heat that's been out for a week.

If they don't legalize medical cannabis next year in my state, I think I will move to where it is legal.
It's legal here in CA but nothing has changed since it was already medically legal so I have no idea how people are living differently lol. I'm substance-free and a teetotaler but my ex is a major pothead so I voted yes to help him and purely for budget reasons cuz the state is in debt lol.
 
@SophiaWisdom Sorry you are having such a hard time

1) Thank goodness the walk with the dog in the woods was good
2) I guess I could have skipped my meds for a day and then I'd have insurance. hmmmm
3) I'm glad my friend reminded me how sick I've been. The walk turned into a hike and I'm pretty tired and not beating myself up for it.
4) I want to nap but... afraid of nightmares. I sort of want to poke at whatever has me so unstable
5) at least I'm trying to use healthy coping skills today, even if the day is sucking
 
1 Thank you @Recovery4Me :hug::happy: Hope you enjoyed the beach ... salty air, waves, breeze :inlove: glass beaches, too :inlove:
2 :hug: @SophiaWisdom Sorry you are having a rough time. My dog is my little life saver, too, and great for those panic attacks. Hope things get better soon :hug:
3 Blue hair streaks are now green. :eek::alien:
4 Need to make a few calls. :nailbiting: How much longer can I put it off?
5 Lettuce wraps for dinner. Something different, something good. :hungry:
 
@SophiaWisdom I hope your heat and electric issue has been resolved. It is an horrible way to live when paying for better.
2. @Naoru I like romaine lettuce wraps and on occasion have enjoyed them stuffing the lettuce with tuna salad. What did you use?
3. I have a major decision to make and sometimes I bulk at change.
4. I was exhausted today from the exercise yesterday on the beach but allowed myself to sleep.
5. My sleep is becoming freer from flashbacks as I have had time to chill from the last residence.
 
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1. I love tuna and garlic too
2. Well, that's that then
3. Just focus on my art
4. Probably get a dog at s...

Ah someone wrote my 5 already lol
Dogs are AWESOME!!

I actually admire you for your #5. Friends have NEVER been enough for me unless it's a best friend for life - I want ONE person to focus on and love and give things to. That's why I'm on a yearlong man fast - I needed to break this addiction. Really rough. Plus I love sex so being celibate effing sucks. Ok those are my 5, sorry so graphic! Didn't mean to be triggering to anyone!
 

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