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Disconnected From Everything

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so now I do have people around me but I still feel disconnected.

I still feel dead.

I still feel like everything is totally pointless.

what now? therapy doesn't help me.
 
Therapy doesnt help you? Why? Is that your final presumption? Can you, elaborate more on this?

The core cause of the disconectedness is being disconnected to your own Self. This can only be rebuilt with an understanding of trauma, realization, and doing the work that needs to be done towards healing.


Yes it is hard, its a painful journey of selfdiscovery, but its essential if you want to walk towards healing.
 
Yet here you are to feel connected. You looking to find people the empathize or you want to fix it?
 
I suppose there's the answer, I don't want to connect with myself.

I don't want to be here anymore. the pain never ends.

ive discovered lots about myself already.it didn't help.

I hate myself.
 
Sometimes it helps me to contrast and compare my difficulty with others... to right size the dilemma.
 
don't want to connect with myself.

"You Dont want to connect because you hate yourself!"

So when you repeat this state of mind, you are absolutely sure of being in this thought process 24/7?

This is how you perceive your reality perpetually?

Please try to capture that thought, and think about it!
 
Emotions are very real and there is no doubt that you feel that way in the moment, but the truth is, our feelings and emotions aren’t always based on fact and don't always reflect reality.
 
it's always there, under all the things I do to distract myself. it always reappears. all my life. deep down, I hate myself.

I don't see any reason for my existence.

for some time, I thought - spiritual evolution, but even that has become pointless - feeling.
 
I have always felt that life is pointless. So, to me, it sounds like you are just being true to your inner self. I have massive trust issues stemming from early childhood abuse. Then I added in my own self abuse & the picture just got muddier with time. So, it's a good thing I learned how to make mud sculptures from my massive piles of shit. I know why I prefer to not connect with people. It requires me to let down my guard. Not happening! I trust no one 100%. If they cannot settle for less than 1%, I figure it's THEIR problem & I go on with my merry life of isolation.
 
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