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This goes beyond just finding out after some digging that my psychiatrist is in fact a convicted and registered pedophile for molestation and child pornography possession. I haven't seen him in over a month, however, surprisingly he states that I have no mental health issues; this may explain why he was so adamant to say I was functional and fine after knowing my past with 10+ years of sexual abuse.
In a way, it's as if he gas lighted me into thinking that I'm okay and have no mental health because I am functional and can keep a job, drive a car and pay my bills. The things that he disregards is how I cry every day without warning, how I see myself as someone who can't go on and how I can't cope with getting out of bed at all. Sure, we all go through this, but I'm noticing how little I trust anyone with the exception of my fiance and the few good people on this forum.
Even typing this out is really hard on me. Everything feels hard, like a struggle. Nothing feels okay, even when everything is going well.
In a way, it's as if he gas lighted me into thinking that I'm okay and have no mental health because I am functional and can keep a job, drive a car and pay my bills. The things that he disregards is how I cry every day without warning, how I see myself as someone who can't go on and how I can't cope with getting out of bed at all. Sure, we all go through this, but I'm noticing how little I trust anyone with the exception of my fiance and the few good people on this forum.
Even typing this out is really hard on me. Everything feels hard, like a struggle. Nothing feels okay, even when everything is going well.