This struggle...

[Copper Princess]

I am so frustrated with the constant roller coaster. I feel ok for a few days and then something happens or someone says something that triggers me and then I hate myself again I and I just want to eat and lay in bed while reading. Crying for no reason and everything irritating me. Sleeping sucks because either I want to sleep all the time or not at all. I am in therapy and I take meds. I am starting to believe this is just how I am supposed to be. Get up take meds, shower, cry, eat, go to work close office door, leave lights off, eat, work, daydream, cry, go home, cook, eat, shower, take meds, cry, get in bed, cry, eat, sleep and do it all again the next day. My struggling seems to be getting worse.

 

[ladee]

Wish I didn't understand, but I do... sometimes for me, I am about to have a breakthru or a shift of some sort... when it seems the struggle is harder... time to surrender what ever is trying to surface... hard to do , as we are tired of being tired.... hope you find that the roller coaster becomes a smoother ride.... damn all this waiting for miracles tho... and I do understand... gentle hugs if you accept.

 

[DaveyMac]

I am so frustrated with the constant roller coaster. I feel ok for a few days and then somethin...

That's unfortunately what happens with PTSD sometimes, often it feels like it will never end. But nothing is permanent, everything can change, my partner since school, over 20 years, including 10 years of marriage, left me last year without explanation only to say my PTSD was too much for her to cope with, I miss her every day but I cling onto the hope that this too shall pass...just keep hanging in there and one day things will be better for you

 

[Deleted member 541]

Hang in there. I remember the days on the roller coaster. I used to call it the Merry go Round. It was bad, but it does get better...

 

[Deleted member 37085]

I care...and I'm going through a very rough patch...learning how to stay present argh! I care...and you know I do...(Hugs!)

 

[WishfulThinking123]

@Copper Princess I understand the rollercoaster you are describing unfortunately....a few days of feeling like I have no problems and wondering why I am even in T (my disassociation) then bam flooding of emotions, flashbacks, and terrible memories. Right now I am just regretting the horrible decision of cutting earlier because, now I have to wait again for the cuts to heal...a grueling anxiety ridden time... Sigh...sending hugs your way!

 

[Tinyflame]

Strange to say but enjoy the better times, for a long time I flat-lined down. Even what I would give now for one normal night's sleep. I hope I can gratefully and without as many issues enjoy better times/ thoughts/ desires one day.

Hugs to you. :hug:

 

[Copper Princess]

Thank you all for your feed back and support. I really appreciate it.