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My dear friends,
Although I was a supporter without an official label here, since he's in denial about his PTSD.
I feel like today I need some support myself. :( Im so sad and so heartbroken and I can't stop crying. Maybe I feel better after venting with you my supporter friends. Your supportive comments have always been very comforting and helpful. Thank you.
With that said, I just got home from my last date with the man I fell in love with year ago. My heart hurts so bad, but I have to let him go. Seeing him hurts me so much. And today I finally am taking off my pink glasses. He's a mess and I can't have what I want with him. He's always stressed, always running, always in a hurry, he seems so lost, his disrespectful and hurtful, he doesn't care about me, at least he doesn't show it. He makes plans, flakes on all of them, he tells me one thing, then does other. Told me to meet him in one place, after I waited an hour without him showing up, had me meet with him in another place 30 min away. Out of loyalty I did, even though felt pathetic to go after a guy, but he was about to leave town so I wanted to say goodbye. We sat down in a bar for 5 min to have a drink when he's already rushing to leave and cut our meeting. Still asking me to see him next week. NO. I can't do it anymore. It's only hurting me to see him. I want what he can't give me. Hes driving was crazy and reckless, I told him to stop it scares me. He's reckless. I can't help him. I told him to please look into PTSD treatment and help, Im worried about him, but he just laughs it off. As a supporter Im done, I feel like it's my duty to help him get help. He's rude, he flirts with every girl around me and jokes about how he wouldn't care if I go with someone else. Then tells me to zip up my cleavage bc he doesn't want to share me with anyone else. He shows love in one minute and totally dismisses it the next. I feel like I just got off an roller coaster ride and need to recoup myself. Im so so sad. I can't see him anymore. Its killing me. I want to give him my love and care, but how can you do that to someone who can't even sit still for 5 minutes. Not to mention any serious future talk is out of the question. It's all just laugh and joke. I feel like I was just a joke. He swears he has feelings for me, but it doesn't feel like it and he sure has its weird ways showing them if he does. I don't know how to tell him I can't see him anymore. Seeing him only hurts me and makes me into an emotional mess myself. I guess Im just going to dissapear from his life in hopes my last words for him will make him get out of denial and seek help to treat his PTSD. f*ck you ptsd! It certainly killed a love story that could have been one of a kind...
Although I was a supporter without an official label here, since he's in denial about his PTSD.
I feel like today I need some support myself. :( Im so sad and so heartbroken and I can't stop crying. Maybe I feel better after venting with you my supporter friends. Your supportive comments have always been very comforting and helpful. Thank you.
With that said, I just got home from my last date with the man I fell in love with year ago. My heart hurts so bad, but I have to let him go. Seeing him hurts me so much. And today I finally am taking off my pink glasses. He's a mess and I can't have what I want with him. He's always stressed, always running, always in a hurry, he seems so lost, his disrespectful and hurtful, he doesn't care about me, at least he doesn't show it. He makes plans, flakes on all of them, he tells me one thing, then does other. Told me to meet him in one place, after I waited an hour without him showing up, had me meet with him in another place 30 min away. Out of loyalty I did, even though felt pathetic to go after a guy, but he was about to leave town so I wanted to say goodbye. We sat down in a bar for 5 min to have a drink when he's already rushing to leave and cut our meeting. Still asking me to see him next week. NO. I can't do it anymore. It's only hurting me to see him. I want what he can't give me. Hes driving was crazy and reckless, I told him to stop it scares me. He's reckless. I can't help him. I told him to please look into PTSD treatment and help, Im worried about him, but he just laughs it off. As a supporter Im done, I feel like it's my duty to help him get help. He's rude, he flirts with every girl around me and jokes about how he wouldn't care if I go with someone else. Then tells me to zip up my cleavage bc he doesn't want to share me with anyone else. He shows love in one minute and totally dismisses it the next. I feel like I just got off an roller coaster ride and need to recoup myself. Im so so sad. I can't see him anymore. Its killing me. I want to give him my love and care, but how can you do that to someone who can't even sit still for 5 minutes. Not to mention any serious future talk is out of the question. It's all just laugh and joke. I feel like I was just a joke. He swears he has feelings for me, but it doesn't feel like it and he sure has its weird ways showing them if he does. I don't know how to tell him I can't see him anymore. Seeing him only hurts me and makes me into an emotional mess myself. I guess Im just going to dissapear from his life in hopes my last words for him will make him get out of denial and seek help to treat his PTSD. f*ck you ptsd! It certainly killed a love story that could have been one of a kind...
