Sufferer I am new had ptsd about 10 years, manifesting recently way worse need ways to deal with my anger

[Sanctimonious Rager]

So I go back n forth between wanting to give up! My anger and rage is constant almost. I am trying not to let it ruin my life. It's affecting my physical health and my family's sick of me being angry all the time and taking it out on them. I had years of therapy used to be on meds. Now I am worse than I have ever been as far as anger and yelling. Can stress cause me to spiral out of control. I feel like all my therapy was for nothing. I am scared that I will pass on my uncontrolled rage to my son who is 3 now. I was never this angry before so consistently. Hoping community helps. Thanks for listening.

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome!

Do you think going on meds again and returning to therapy would help?

 

[Swift]

Welcome.
I hope you find what you're looking for.
Therapy is difficult.
My mind is like a car, it needs a tune-up occasionally. Doesn't mean what I've done is for nothing, just means it needs a little more.

 

[ladee]

Welcome, glad you reached out. This is a huge forum. you might also try reading threads pertaining to anger and rage. I understand. For a long while, all I felt was rage... there were many feelings that I didn't know about that I could slow myself down to feel before it hit the redzone. but I needed help with that...
And your past therapy wasn't for nothing... it let you ask for help with this... really hoping you find someone to help you with this, such as a therapist and possible meds until you can get a handle on it... we are here for you, to listen and support and share to let you know you are not alone..

 

[Justmehere]

Can stress cause me to spiral out of control.

Yep.

Check out the Stress Cup explaination.

How about getting back into treatment? Setbacks like this are not the end of recovery, but a chance to do deeper work and learn more ways to cope. As you learn to work through and with the anger, you’ll gain skills you can teach your son too, and be able to be more of the dad you want to be for him.

 

[Sanctimonious Rager]

Thanks I set up therapy for the 23Rd I appreciate all of you. I am a mom I hate feeling angry from when I get out of bed til when I go to sleep. Some days are like that.

Yep.

Check out the Stress Cu...

Thanks, as his mom I feel like I am failing because I am not the person I want to be, I made an appointment for therapy 23Rd.

Welcome, glad you reached out. This is a huge forum. you might also try reading threads pertaining to ang...

I'm glad you said all my hard work in the past wasn't for nothing because that is how I have been feeling.

 

[Freida]

Hi there!

Think of your past work as the foundation of a house. It holds you up -- but sometimes water gets in and the foundation starts to crack. So you have to go back in and re cement it to get the cracks filled and the foundation strong again.
And I think you will pleasantly surprised by how much PTSD therapy has changed over the last few years to make it more effective.

 

[ladee]

Fantastic that you reached out here, got some great, real, validation and understanding, and made the choice to get help. This is a hard journey. We have PTSD for the long haul, so it only helps us to have safe input and support along the way. Very proud you set that appointment.
You aren't starting over. You are dealing with the issues at hand that are becoming something you know you have to tend to.. that takes courage and personal insight. And as @Justmehere shared, you will now have new tools to help your son also. So this is a double win for you and him. He had a mom who has courage, I feel that outweighs rage any day...

Thinking of you and wishing you success with therapy, and don't forget we are here for you... we understand. You are not alone.

 

[ben1982]

I do martial arts. Works great for me. I had a great martial arts teacher that learned me how to control and aim my anger were it belongs. And it gave me a healthy outlet. I can scream, hit and kick without really hurting people. I'm building both body and mind. Dont know if it will work for you. But it does wonders for me. It makes me stronger mentally, My body is in great shape. And i'm in control of my anger instead of my anger controlling me. Finding a martial art that fits you can take some time. Just as finding a good school. You might have to look and try some things. Dont go for the first school you encounter. You need proper guidelines and a good teacher to make it work. Not just a place to hit people. That could make things worse.