So I've had this book Heal Your PTSD for a couple of years and I've had such resistance to the things Michelle Rosenthal, the author, suggests.
Recently I've started to feel more open to trying her approach.
So I'm going to try the first exercise. It is answering the question; What have you lost due to trauma?
I think I lost any sense of security, from a young age.
The ability to trust anyone, until my now relationship, which started at 37.
But at the same time I lost my relationship with most of my children.
I lost the ability to earn a living, despite being highly intelligent and the daughter of professionals.
I lost any chance of owning my own home.
I lost my body of musical work.
I lost my musical career.
I lost my mind, for a time.
I lost my family.
I lost the opportunity to know what it's like to experience community.
I lost the chance to have financial security.
I lost my rappin' freestyling flow
I lost my confidence
I lost my mum, my siblings, my grandparents, my uncle's, my cousins, my nieces, my nephews, my stepdad.
My fans.
My fitness, my figure, my childhood, my youth, my 20's, my 30's.
My band(s).
My recorded originals.
Most of the friends I've ever had.
My notoriety, my reputation, respect from my peers, my kids, my community members.
My opportunity to learn how to use commonly utilized technologies, i.e. cars, tools of my trade,
My capacity to learn and absorb vast quantities of information.
