Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

I hope your therapist contacts you back soon as well. I can imagine how stressful that must be.

Dude yeah, maybe I’ll get a new therapist who lives in a bunker so I can ignore natural disasters :/

I'd say the situation with T, and the cyclical nature of bad nightmares - bad nightmare, bad day, bad nightmare, worse day, stand out pretty big to me from reading your post

Hm maybe



Maybe it doesn’t look like a landing pad to you, but maybe it is one!! :P

 

[bellbird]

Dude yeah, maybe I’ll get a new therapist who lives in a bunker so I can ignore natural disasters :/

Bunker group get together. I'm down.

Maybe it doesn’t look like a landing pad to you, but maybe it is one!! :p

Fair fair. You'd like Tweeter, I think. And I think he'd like you too.

 

[ILoveLife]

I did find my missing $200 book though, so that’s neat

You know what's weird? I kept wondering about that book. Like, "Will she find the 200 dollar book?" - stay tuned for the next episode.
My mind has a weird way of denialing other's pain, it's really not what my brain should focus on in your diary. I'm sorry for that.

I do agree with the nightmare cycle. Can you try and post the nightmares here and analyse what they mean to you?
It really helped me before.
My pdoc says their content is what we need to deal with in reality.

 

[littleoc]

Fair fair. You'd like Tweeter, I think. And I think he'd like you too.

!!!

What color is he? :)

I'm sorry for that.

Lol, don’t worry about it! I was thinking about your textbooks. Have you gotten them all yet??

Probably that commonality kept it relevant?

I tend to remember weird details about people even more when I find them relevant to something I’m dealing with. :)

Can you try and post the nightmares here and analyse what they mean to you?

Hm. Maybe maybe

 

[ILoveLife]

Have you gotten them all yet??

Lol.. no :(
Don't want to talk about it - Denial is better than senile.

Probably that commonality kept it relevant?

I'm sure.
I also keep remembering your dad too. I think you're too kind to him, then I remember me being too kind to mine and I go "Booyah! Probably something to deal with in T and I'm projecting" :)

 

[bellbird]

What color is he? :)

A mix of yellow, green and blue. And the shade variations between those.

I have an old lorazepam container that I collect in cute feathers that he drops.

Yesterday he lost one of his face dots, and then this morning another.
I think he heard me tell him that he was looking asymmetrical (not that I'm one to judge, given my scoliosis).

 

[littleoc]

Dang it.

I hope it works out :-X

Haha, nice though! Glad our similarities could help you a little bit!! That was part of why I felt better starting this diary!!! Terrified of being selfish. Or sexiest actually. Apparently one time when my friend Austin had to get EMS to help me out I came to just enough to try to tell him that I wasnt afraid of him because I’m not against dudes. Lol. I tried I guess!

:)

@bellbird Pretty!! And cute!!!

I should probably sleep. :) Goodnight

 

[ILoveLife]

:hug: Good night

You're not selfish at all.

 

[littleoc]

:) :)

I was so tired in that last post, sorry about that! Fixed some typoes instead of just redacting it though.

I’m annoyed because I finally got my sleeping schedule straight but felt pressured to watch a movie. It’s a long story. But I woke up way too late and my bird’s gonna be angry. She holds grudges :x

 

[bellbird]

But I woke up way too late and my bird’s gonna be angry. She holds grudges :x

So relatable.
Hope tonight can return back to the sleep schedule :hug:

 

[littleoc]

There sure are a lot of Amber alerts right now. Hopefully she’s okay

 

[littleoc]

You know, my dad had this attitude towards children, so I know I’m triggered. My dad regularly insisted that my little brother should be put down for being wheelchair bound. He insisted on abortions and suffocating babies who might be problems.

I have a nagging suspicion I’m going to get in trouble for saying that. I’m allowed to talk about what I want to nowadays. No hippo ? violation there :)

? ? Hippos are dangerous animals.