I’m currently going through a CBTi course (cognitive behavioural therapy for insomnia), at an NHS sleep clinic. It involves a combination of sleep hygiene, sleep restriction and CBT techniques to improve/fix insomnia. Most of the techniques I already know and have been practicing for years, but there is new stuff, some of which, because of my history (trauma) I’m finding more challenging. Mostly it’s the sleep restriction, which can in my case, stop me sleeping altogether.
The whole experience has me swinging between believing this might actually work and this is alright for most insomniacs, but not people like us. It doesn’t help that I already know so much of what we’re being taught. The woman running the course keeps directing us to people's testimonials online, which is all fine, but those people don’t have PTSD.
The sleep thing’s always been a big issue for me- extra complicated, but I really want to believe this course might help. So I figure I should ask here, where people do get it, or at least are more likely to. So, what I’m asking is, have you ever tried CBTi and did it work for you?
I am also a research based kinda gal, and because I think I know a lot....and I do....I have a voice in my head that is more critical than someone without the knowledge because I spent my career in the area of special needs, strategies, problem-solving, trauma, and the like. For others, I am quick to suggest programs, strategies, and give hopeful words of encouragement. My background lends me to a more individualized approach to solving strategy based issues.....Quality sleep is critical for my health. I have had times where I only got a little sleep....but I have worked really very hard to identify what I need to get to sleep, what interferes with sleep (absolutely no naps, no caffeine after noon, no afternoon/evening exercise, etc) But programs....I'm quick to negatively judge/critique and fault find programs-I look for the holes in them.
I am also quicker to dismiss programs and interventions, for reasons that "I already know it", it's not really that bad," or I'm not deserving somehow." But knowing something and practicing and learning it are two different goals...one is knowledge...one is habit (the doing part successfully and tracking that data to show progress). For example, I do have memory issues......and I've read about neuroplasticity, the brain, TBI, PTSD and memory/health, CPTSD, temperal lobe and memory, epilepsy and memory, taught memory strategies all my life, and know lots of buzz words, strategies, and facts about memory....but I still deal with memory issues myself. I was approached by my neurologist in the summer about a free memory program so I said sure (cough** cough) thinking the program will be too elementary-BORING. At the same time, I wished it would be helpful. I remember thinking I could use more practice, and tips and tricks, and memory strategies but I doubt this program will work for me. The first lesson was a piece of cake.....explaining how memory works, short-term, long-term...basics., the need for repetition, and all that..... needless to say, initially I was yawning......so I had to say to myself when I found myself doubting the process......find one thing, just one thing that I didn't know or didn't put into practice and just improve in one area....and that is my first goal....to be open to learning one new thing.
......so, when I got past the "I know too much to be here....and the irony.....I need to be here cause I'm struggling to function in the memory dept. which is impacting multiple facets of my life...." (that intellectualizing part of me can kick my ass and keep me from moving forward)-then I could maybe have a chance of learning something, or learn new habits to increase retention.....because if I learned one new thing....maybe I could learn more than one thing.....maybe things could be better. So it all boiled down to getting me out of the way, and the hope and faith that the time I spend trying new recall strategies will improve my life-and getting the intellectual part and the critical part to step back and let me learn something was my first step.
The point....if you get an hour of sustained extra sleep out of the CBTi class.....you improved your health....and it was worth it. So, have faith, give it a real go, and maybe things will improve. Sleep like memory, are critical things we need in order to function everyday. It can't hurt for sure!
Good luck!