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Asked my long term therapist about this today because it was all causing me some anxiety.
I very casually (!) said I'd been offered EMDR and that I was open to exploring it but also had some hesitations and what did she think. She didn't really know anything about EMDR so is going to research it a bit. She seemed a bit like me really....open to exploring what might be a useful treatment for me but also cautious in case it sets me back and starts triggering dissociation again because it's taken us a long time to get that more under control.
I asked her, if I decide to go ahead and try the EMDR, would she still be happy to continue to work with me alongside that and she said absolutely. She actually looked quite horrified at the thought of me going off and doing something different elsewhere and her not being in the picture as a consistent support who knows me/my history etc really well.
So, I think that now feels better.
Although it's not ideal, I think I'm just going to leave it as it is with the NHS one...I don't think I need to admit to blurting out a panicked fib! I don't anticipate there being very many sessions nor her wanting to go all out to build a deep therapeutic relationship with me for that limited time scale. So, although I wish I had been honest, I think I can live it and leave it there. Don't think that will cause any harm or be detrimental to the process. If it unexpectedly does, I'll have to cross that bridge when I come to it.
Thanks everyone for helping me think this through.
I very casually (!) said I'd been offered EMDR and that I was open to exploring it but also had some hesitations and what did she think. She didn't really know anything about EMDR so is going to research it a bit. She seemed a bit like me really....open to exploring what might be a useful treatment for me but also cautious in case it sets me back and starts triggering dissociation again because it's taken us a long time to get that more under control.
I asked her, if I decide to go ahead and try the EMDR, would she still be happy to continue to work with me alongside that and she said absolutely. She actually looked quite horrified at the thought of me going off and doing something different elsewhere and her not being in the picture as a consistent support who knows me/my history etc really well.
So, I think that now feels better.
Although it's not ideal, I think I'm just going to leave it as it is with the NHS one...I don't think I need to admit to blurting out a panicked fib! I don't anticipate there being very many sessions nor her wanting to go all out to build a deep therapeutic relationship with me for that limited time scale. So, although I wish I had been honest, I think I can live it and leave it there. Don't think that will cause any harm or be detrimental to the process. If it unexpectedly does, I'll have to cross that bridge when I come to it.
Thanks everyone for helping me think this through.