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So I've had another rupture with my T.
Hate this feeling.
But I'm trying to work through it and take responsibility for my part of it.
I *think* what my T was trying to say is that this is a reenactment from the past that I have drawn her into. And that we need to step out of it and examine it, as that is where the healing is.
.no idea really what she meant, as part of me, that is very hurt, heard: don't talk, don't have needs, don't express, don't be in therapy; and I have impacted her negatively.
Which I know is coming from a young place.
Essentially she said that I am stuck and I am placing pressure on therapy, and her, to make things better. And that is making her feel helpless. And she wondered if I was manipulating the situation, to keep her attention by remaining stuck.
Again, this is coming from my interpretation of what she said. And it's hard to be objective because I'm really hurt by what she said.
Think I'm hurt because she might be right. But also hurt as I feel silenced.
So, have you played out a reenactment with your therapist? And how did you get past it?
Hate this feeling.
But I'm trying to work through it and take responsibility for my part of it.
I *think* what my T was trying to say is that this is a reenactment from the past that I have drawn her into. And that we need to step out of it and examine it, as that is where the healing is.
.no idea really what she meant, as part of me, that is very hurt, heard: don't talk, don't have needs, don't express, don't be in therapy; and I have impacted her negatively.
Which I know is coming from a young place.
Essentially she said that I am stuck and I am placing pressure on therapy, and her, to make things better. And that is making her feel helpless. And she wondered if I was manipulating the situation, to keep her attention by remaining stuck.
Again, this is coming from my interpretation of what she said. And it's hard to be objective because I'm really hurt by what she said.
Think I'm hurt because she might be right. But also hurt as I feel silenced.
So, have you played out a reenactment with your therapist? And how did you get past it?