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Hi- new here so not exactly sure how this works.
I am a nurse and have been for a little over 2 years. I started as a new grad on the solid organ transplant unit and PCU which is critical care. My unit was filled with very toxic people that would give the sickest patients to the new grads because they said they were there longer and had to deal with it. I found myself with all of my patients tanking on me every night and I saw unspeakable horrors and had violence against me on the regular basis. Needless to say I developed PTSD. I have flashbacks and difficulty sleeping. I finally left that unit and I was just offered a job on a postpartum unit which I thought could be good for me because it is low stress. I went to shadow and saw some equipment and had a full blown flashback and panic attack. I keep it to myself but I couldn’t breathe, I felt dizzy and I was scared for my life just SEEING equipment. Idk what to do. I spent my whole life trying to get this degree, I need money! Idk what to do! Should I take the job and work through it or avoid it at all costs? I’ve applied for outpatient jobs and work from home jobs and I’ve gotten NOTHING. Either they say I haven’t been a nurse long enough to get the outpatient job or home job or I don’t have the skills if I try to apply for a job outside of healthcare and I can’t not work. It’s so overwhelming and I feel like horrible I’m like this. I just wish the thoughts would stop. Any other nurses or healthcare workers going through the same thing?
I am a nurse and have been for a little over 2 years. I started as a new grad on the solid organ transplant unit and PCU which is critical care. My unit was filled with very toxic people that would give the sickest patients to the new grads because they said they were there longer and had to deal with it. I found myself with all of my patients tanking on me every night and I saw unspeakable horrors and had violence against me on the regular basis. Needless to say I developed PTSD. I have flashbacks and difficulty sleeping. I finally left that unit and I was just offered a job on a postpartum unit which I thought could be good for me because it is low stress. I went to shadow and saw some equipment and had a full blown flashback and panic attack. I keep it to myself but I couldn’t breathe, I felt dizzy and I was scared for my life just SEEING equipment. Idk what to do. I spent my whole life trying to get this degree, I need money! Idk what to do! Should I take the job and work through it or avoid it at all costs? I’ve applied for outpatient jobs and work from home jobs and I’ve gotten NOTHING. Either they say I haven’t been a nurse long enough to get the outpatient job or home job or I don’t have the skills if I try to apply for a job outside of healthcare and I can’t not work. It’s so overwhelming and I feel like horrible I’m like this. I just wish the thoughts would stop. Any other nurses or healthcare workers going through the same thing?