Where Do I Start?

[Papa369]

Hi:
I'm Papa369. I'm trying to understand and learn how to deal with my childhood. Warning it was extreme and lasted from birth till I was 12 and 1/2.
Thanks

 

[livergirl70]

Hiya,

I'm pretty new here, but from what I've seen everyone is really nice and supportive. Are you seeing a therapist at all?

 

[Papa369]

I've given up on therapist. At 12.5 age I was put in intensive theapy so as I could learn what was real, normal behaveior.
I've tried on and off over the years but found it easiest to just bury it.

 

[blueangel371115]

Welcome,
I find that therapy is the best. Most here will agree. Because to bury it is to hold it in. There it can hurt you. We have many good people here who will help you get through.

 

[Papa369]

Thanks, I have the day to day stuff down it's just my mind and thoughts etc. I just want to be able to better control or understand them. I tend to get mad at myself and remind myself I survied and have been a good, decent person and haven't followed the path of my childhood.

 

[blueangel371115]

that's good. That's where I'm at. In my diary, I try to rationalize things. Good luck

 

[Papa369]

Welcome,
I find that therapy is the best. Most here will agree. Because to bury it is to hold it in. There it can hurt you. We have many good people here who will help you get through.

I'm looking for help in understanding the mental part, I know what is wright and wrong and haven't repeated what happened to me. That part is good. I just need to learn better ways to deal with the mental aspects as I get older, I find I dwell on that part more plus being retired gives me more free time.

 

[blueangel371115]

Ah I see. I believe there are articles/posts on coping skills somewhere. I'm just learning myself.

 

[Papa369]

Well I guess it come down to me telling the story of my childhood, and seeing if someone can direct me or tell me if I'm in the right place. If there is a moderator maybe he/she can direct me. I don't want to subject everyone to it becasue it was from birth till I was 12 and 1/2. The specific's include physcial and emotional abuse, sexual abuse. and at age 12 had my primary parent tried to kill me and thus I ended up being a depend of the State. I just don't know where to start and I don't want to get kick off for being to explicit.

 

[blueangel371115]

That's ok and the others will correct me if I'm wrong. But the trauma diary section is to write down the actual traumas and your feelings. Believe me, some can be quite horrifying. I don't thnk you will get into trouble.

 

[Papa369]

That's ok and the others will correct me if I'm wrong. But the trauma diary section is to write down the actual traumas and your feelings. Believe me, some can be quite horrifying. I don't thnk you will get into trouble.

Thanks, I'll try to find it.

 

[blueangel371115]

you're welcome. Don't hesitate to ask. That's what Anthony and the mods are here for. Good luck