Theasylumsystem
Silver Member
What words could soothe a broken heart? Broken bones do not mend with kind words. Lovely phrases never stop bleeding. I write this at night, Mother Earth as my witness. I’ve written many things on a night like tonight.
I thought I would write love poems about you. Started to plan a life with space for you in it. Maybe I got attached too soon. Maybe I should be over it already, but I can’t deny how much I wanted you. The sky cries with me in the darkness of night. Our sorrow and hurt are in every drop and tear. She feels my pain and soothes my hurt as she has so many nights before now, and I’m sure many nights after this one.
Nights that won’t include you in them… Nights that will be spent alone or maybe in the arms of another. I just needed you to know that I wanted you. I wanted you so much it ached. I wanted you so much that I begged and pleaded and cried. I wanted you so much that I dismissed myself entirely. I said yes to being not quite lovers, said yes through the breaking of my heart. Said yes because I wasn’t ready to lose you.
I almost could’ve called it love. Maybe these words mean nothing to you at all. If they don’t, then I suppose I never made an impression upon you at all. Getting to know you was so fun and so joyous. I tried to memorize so much. The way you smile. The way you laugh. I misjudged how much I mattered to you. I always felt like I was living in someone else’s shadow. Someone I never met, but they still held your love.
We will pass through this life, and maybe we’ll completely forget about it all. We will not remember blissful summer nights, sweet kisses, and marks on skin. Talking about the future like it were in the palm of our hands. How could I ever be your friend? For me, it is impossible. Not when I felt so close to loving you.
Friends, you share a beer or a laugh. Even close friends don’t know the vast expanses of your skin. Don’t know the way you moan or laugh. How could I ever congratulate you on a new lover? I will reserve myself from that heartbreak in place of another. Our final Goodbye.
Despite it all, I wish you happiness. May you have such a wonderful life, filled with joy and warmth and peace. Thank you for the joy. Thank you for the giddy laughs and shy smiles. Thank you for everything. Goodbye.
I thought I would write love poems about you. Started to plan a life with space for you in it. Maybe I got attached too soon. Maybe I should be over it already, but I can’t deny how much I wanted you. The sky cries with me in the darkness of night. Our sorrow and hurt are in every drop and tear. She feels my pain and soothes my hurt as she has so many nights before now, and I’m sure many nights after this one.
Nights that won’t include you in them… Nights that will be spent alone or maybe in the arms of another. I just needed you to know that I wanted you. I wanted you so much it ached. I wanted you so much that I begged and pleaded and cried. I wanted you so much that I dismissed myself entirely. I said yes to being not quite lovers, said yes through the breaking of my heart. Said yes because I wasn’t ready to lose you.
I almost could’ve called it love. Maybe these words mean nothing to you at all. If they don’t, then I suppose I never made an impression upon you at all. Getting to know you was so fun and so joyous. I tried to memorize so much. The way you smile. The way you laugh. I misjudged how much I mattered to you. I always felt like I was living in someone else’s shadow. Someone I never met, but they still held your love.
We will pass through this life, and maybe we’ll completely forget about it all. We will not remember blissful summer nights, sweet kisses, and marks on skin. Talking about the future like it were in the palm of our hands. How could I ever be your friend? For me, it is impossible. Not when I felt so close to loving you.
Friends, you share a beer or a laugh. Even close friends don’t know the vast expanses of your skin. Don’t know the way you moan or laugh. How could I ever congratulate you on a new lover? I will reserve myself from that heartbreak in place of another. Our final Goodbye.
Despite it all, I wish you happiness. May you have such a wonderful life, filled with joy and warmth and peace. Thank you for the joy. Thank you for the giddy laughs and shy smiles. Thank you for everything. Goodbye.
