Anxiety, Panic Attacks and Intrusive Thoughts - Ending a 10 Year Relationship

[CazzTheGeek]

@Nairobi That's a problem too, we live in a very small town. I don't know his work hours and I'm terrified about bumping into them. I'm definitely going to visit friends more, they're a 40 minute train ride and sometimes I can stay the night. I started writing poetry and want to stream (Twitch mostly). However, because I have to save to move, I can't invest in equipment.

Ironic because I've helped him get out of so many financial jams over the years, it ate my savings. This is a big reason why I didn't start streaming sooner.

 

[Nairobi]

I'm definitely going to visit friends more, they're a 40 minute train ride and sometimes I can stay the night.

I think It would improve the situation for two reasons: you dont see your ex so you dont have to remember the pain again and again, and also you are speaking with another person so you can distract your mind for this pain

Of course this situation is a bad thing, but maybe It can also has some positive things: you can save money and Focus in things that make YOU Happy like the streaming and the poetry

 

[Survivor3]

Hi cazz, how are you feeling today?

 

[CazzTheGeek]

Hi cazz, how are you feeling today?

Thanks for checking in @Survivor3, I feel like crap. The past three years one of my most dominant dreams, was my ex leaving me for someone else. I'd wake up in panic attacks, completely triggered. Now I'm living in that nightmare.

 

[Survivor3]

Have you both spoken to each other since yesterday?

 

[CazzTheGeek]

@Survivor3 He called me at my friends in tears, once again I comforted him. I did tell him everyday I'm dieing inside. He hasn't been home since I got back last night.

 

[Survivor3]

Such a difficult situation, I'm sorry. If someone asked you how you felt about him, what would you say?

 

[CazzTheGeek]

@Survivor3 Thanks. Even though we are strangers in a app, you have been more supportive then some of my friends. I'm sure I've said it before but, thank you for everything.

Good question, I still love him but his put me through to much heartbreak and choosen someone else. I know we shouldn't be together, however I sill care deeply for him and yet, I'm so bloody angry at the same time.

 

[Survivor3]

@Survivor3 Thanks. Even though we are strangers in a app, you have been more supportive then some of my friends. I'm sure I've said it before but, thank you for everything.

Good question, I still love him but his put me through to much heartbreak and choosen someone else. I know we shouldn't be together, however I sill care deeply for him and yet, I'm so bloody angry at the same time.

Your welcome cazz, I like being friends with you. Yes, I don't blame you for feeling the way you do. You have so many feelings to deal with. I can't pretend to have any answers but can listen and talk when you need to vent.

 

[CazzTheGeek]

Aq

Your welcome cazz, I like being friends with you. Yes, I don't blame you for feeling the way you do. You have so many feelings to deal with. I can't pretend to have any answers but can listen and talk when you need to vent.

Thanks, like wise. I hope they'll be a time we chat soon when I'm not so messed up. I don't think there are any answers to my situation. So talking is the healthiest way to cope. Unfortunately, I have half turned to the unhealthy kind tonight.

 

[Survivor3]

Aq

Thanks, like wise. I hope they'll be a time we chat soon when I'm not so messed up. I don't think there are any answers to my situation. So talking is the healthiest way to cope. Unfortunately, I have half turned to the unhealthy kind tonight.

Having a drink?

 

[CazzTheGeek]

Yes, sorry. I know it's not right. @Survivor3