Feeling trapped with where I am in life

[Theasylumsystem]

I just feel so stuck. It's so hard to find a way out of how I feel right now. I know nothing is permanent. I know everything changes, but god, I feel so trapped. I want to get out of my apartment so bad. I want to have my own space. I want to be literally anywhere else. my mom doesn't want to move away from her family, but I also don't want to be here forever. My best friend has already moved away, and my friend from work is also moving, so maybe that's where this is coming from? I don't know, I just think it makes me think suicidal thoughts sometimes because I feel like I'm going nowhere.

 

[PamelaS]

I just feel so stuck. It's so hard to find a way out of how I feel right now. I know nothing is permanent. I know everything changes, but god, I feel so trapped. I want to get out of my apartment so bad. I want to have my own space. I want to be literally anywhere else. my mom doesn't want to move away from her family, but I also don't want to be here forever. My best friend has already moved away, and my friend from work is also moving, so maybe that's where this is coming from? I don't know, I just think it makes me think suicidal thoughts sometimes because I feel like I'm going nowhere.

Good morning, i’m sorry that you’re struggling. Thank you for sharing. You are not alone. Sometimes we go through seasons where we aren’t moving anywhere. But that’s OK, because it’s just a season. Life has a lot of seasons: winter, spring, summer and fall. They’re not perfect, but that’s OK because we are not perfect. Please know that no matter how you feel at the moment, your life will not stay this way. Life is always in motion. I hope and pray that you will find the courage to keep moving forward to the next season of your life. Try not to get stuck in the past and try not to get stuck where you are. The future is wide open. Anything is possible. We don’t have to be defined by our past or our present. We can move forward, creating a better future for our ourselves. It won’t be perfect either. But that’s OK. We are all here together, trying to put 1 foot in front of the other, trying to move forward to a better place. Keep engaging here. Share some encouragement for someone else if you are up to it. Bring goodness in the world with a tiny act of kindness. Keep doing that. One little bit at a time. One step at a time. Sometimes one moment at a time. Always making the world a little bit better by being in it. Looking forward to hearing from you as you move forward. Take good care of yourself and don’t beat yourself up. The world does enough of that. We don’t have to contribute to the negative things that the world does. We can bring life and goodness into someone’s day, like I hope that I have done for you. You bring meaning to my life just by being you and just by being here with me. Thank you for that. Look up. Breathe deeply. Try to find goodness. It’s all around you. It may be hidden in the darkness, but if you try to find it, you will. And maybe you will be the goodness in someone else’s life. That would make me very happy. Hope to hear from you soon.

 

[corgi_SDiT]

you got this! I understand your pain

 

[FFnerd]

Hopefully this helps, I felt incredibly trapped 5 years ago as well. I had no stable housing, no career opportunities, no close friends who knew what I was struggling through and no family I felt safe to rely on. It was a gradual change, but if myself back then could see me today - they would be floored and excited for the future. Things aren't a walk in the park still, but what I didn't know then was that I was starting a new chapter that I didn't know the end of. In short, these moments come and go - and the smallest things can have the greatest impact down the line.
You don't have to have big plans or have everything figured out - no one does - but have you thought about what things you can change? What you do have control over? This can be as simple as the route you take home from school/work, what you eat in the morning, how you put yourself to bed at the end of the day. For me (besides meds), sometimes those are just the building blocks I need to help me gain enough sense of control to do have a clearer/stabler view of my options and situation.