I have been assigned a new therapist and now I am going to stick with the idea I am worth it, and it's work to get to that point where you don't slide back into the same self sabotaging behaviours. That is what I need to do, I can't change the past, what's done is done, how we live today, authentically is work to get to the version of yourself that feel genuine.
That is very well put Deb... trauma knocks the hell out of a persons self esteem. Rebuilding that, letting go of the old you and working towards what you want to be, becoming what you want to be... all valid attributes for healing trauma.
Relapse is part and parcel of PTSD, yet the more you practice and implement assertive behaviours, the more confident you become, the faster you recover from relapse and as time passes, you continually get better and better at it.
Well done for researching things out for yourself though... it becomes very frustrating when people only want to see one side of things because someone like a therapist told them so... believing they have the answers, yet often their wrong or misguided, don't remain current on information, etc. There are two sides to every fence... and you must look at both and sit in the middle, using the best of both worlds, even at times leaning towards one side or the other based on what works best.
Example. I had surgery years ago on my ankle after breaking it in a fight. It has a plate and screws in it. Now the scar tissue formed, all normal... the doctors said it would go away by using physiotherapy. No probs... attended all that, did everything, it went down little. My ankle was twice the size of the other. Their next theory... we'll do more micro-surgery to remove the scar tissue. Away they went, ankle scar tissue overall decreased very little. My ex-wife happened to mention this to her acupuncturist, who luckily happened to be like a guru at it... studied and practiced in China for most of his career, even though he was Australian born. So... went and seen him, within 6 - 8 sessions using acupuncture, he decreased it around 70% and simply stated, it won't get much better than that. End result though, both ankles are nearly identical again... noticeable if you look closely, but not noticeable like it was prior at twice the size. Alternative therapy was the better alternative than conventional medicine, which created the problem in the first place.
Moral... one is not always better than the other, yet sometimes they are. If I had a heart attack, I would not be looking towards alternative medicine to keep me alive, I would be jumping off the fence to modern medicine in that case.
Mental health is the same. There are a lot of nutjobs on both sides (alternative and modern mental health), claiming things and making statements usually to create a name for themselves, or to profit from others misfortune. If you research though, and typically stick with the overwhelming majority, then optimal results are heightened for yourself.
The Linden Method
In a nutshell, this is stress inoculation therapy. I think they stretched their marketing a little claiming to remove PTSD from your life. Stress inoculation by itself, will not stop PTSD. It promotes how to manage stress, what it is, what to do with it, how to approach things, strategies, etc... and whilst right at this second, it is valid to say PTSD is an anxiety disorder, the DSM V has moved PTSD out and into being a traumatic disorder, because treating the anxiety does not provide any type of longevity result. Mental Health have been doing this for decades now, and realized it isn't working. Its the trauma that must be treated, not the symptoms. The Linden Method treats symptoms, not trauma...
Could it help you with stress management and lowering anxiety with PTSD? Yes...
Will it do as advertised to remove your PTSD from your life? Not a chance in hell... because PTSD is not anxiety, it is trauma based. Trauma is the cause... and no one method can treat trauma, because trauma is literally so individual to each persons individually and traumatic memories stored. Stand two people side by side facing the same traumatic event, one's most significant issue due to PTSD will be the traumatic event, the others may be the bullying they got during childhood... the event only topped off existing trauma they endured in their life, yet they don't find the latest event overtly detrimental... instead, it raised an earlier event which they now find most traumatic in their life.
This is where every method so far created has failed to treat PTSD, because it really is so literally individual and based on trauma, not anxiety. Even the APA now recognise this by shifting PTSD to be a traumatic disorder, not anxiety disorder.