So Incredibly Low And Scared

[missing_the _sunshine]

Sorry to hear about the beatings. You can still come here and share your feelings and we won't mind how you look. We know there is a beautiful person inside who is hurting.

Thanks Tessa - things are a bit out of control at the moment...they have escalated again tonight. Wish I could leave...so scared right now.

 

[missing_the _sunshine]

You are definitely very strong and caring! As a disabled person, I am grateful that there are people out there like you who try to protect us. You definitely do not deserve the beatings!

Thanks for your kind words. At the moment I don't feel like I am doing a very good job of protecting him...just wish I could make it all go away. There is no way he can defend himself at least I can try and curl into a ball so that it doesnt hurt so much. Hopefully I win the Lotto and we can find somewhere for the two of us.

 

[Reclusive]

Missing the Sunshine - I'm so sorry to hear this is happening to you! I think of you often - trying to find a solution for you. Please hang in there and do what you can to take care of yourself. Remember - you absolutely don't deserve this kind of treatment. Right now you have chosen to walk the path of the martyr, for better or for worse. It's not an easy path - it takes someone very strong in will and character to put themselves in harms way for someone else.

 

[missing_the _sunshine]

Missing the Sunshine - I'm so sorry to hear this is happening to you! I think of you often - trying to find a solution for you.

Thank you so much for your thoughts - I constantly feel alone - however it feels nice to know that someone is out there.

Right now you have chosen to walk the path of the martyr, for better or for worse. It's not an easy path - it takes someone very strong in will and character to put themselves in harms way for someone else.

At the moment I don't feel very strong at all - everytime I look at my brother and see any kinds of marks/bruises I count the amount of times that I have let him down - I just wish that I could take them all for him. I just want all of this to go away.

Thanks for your time!

 

[Srain]

Checking in on you and sending you strength and healing. I understand it is not easy but we are thinking of you.

Please take the best care possible,
hugs,
Rain

 

[missing_the _sunshine]

Checking in on you and sending you strength and healing. I understand it is not easy but we are thinking of you.

Thanks Rain-hanging on by a thread...but still hanging at least.

 

[Deaf Global Nomad]

Bright and I are thinking of you this morning... We're sending you a sailor's rope used on the large ships and some magical footrests that you can use for your feet. Oh yes, and a big fluffy cloud that you can shape up into a chair, a blanket, a hat, and anything else that might protect you.

 

[missing_the _sunshine]

Bright and I are thinking of you this morning... We're sending you a sailor's rope used on the large ships and some magical footrests that you can use for your feet. Oh yes, and a big fluffy cloud that you can shape up into a chair, a blanket, a hat, and anything else that might protect you.

Sounds cozy - thank you for your thoughts, I really appreciate you thinking of me.

 

[Froggie]

My heart goes out to you (((((missing_the_sunshine))))), I find this horrible that your father is taking out his rage on you and your brother. Does you T know about all this ? Is there any way you and T can build a security plan to get both of you out of your father's grip ? He is commiting a criminal act by beating you and your brother. As many have stated, you're strong and a good person not to leave your brother alone in this situation. Have you ever talked to a police officer about what you are living ? I better stop as situations like this gets me mad. I understand you may be scared to do the things I'm suggesting, I know I was scared when I was with an abusive husband, but I did finally open up with a T who helped me put a security plan in place. I know you must feel trapped, even more seeing your brother in a helpless situation. Count on your strenght to guide you to the right people. Will light a candle for you today.

 

[missing_the _sunshine]

I find this horrible that your father is taking out his rage on you and your brother. Does you T know about all this ? Is there any way you and T can build a security plan to get both of you out of your father's grip ? He is commiting a criminal act by beating you and your brother.
Have you ever talked to a police officer about what you are living ?

Thanks for your reply Froggie...um, my T doesnt know about the beatings. I know that she should but I always promised myself that I would never tell her. When I was in High School I told a teacher about it when he asked about my face being bruised a few weeks in a row. The teacher then told the school psych who contacted my parents and I then got the biggest hiding ever and my brother got it worse. So there is no way that I will ever tell anyone...I mentioned it on here because I know there will be no fall back. There are many others out there who have it far worse so I just keep reminding myself of that.

Thanks again for your reply Froggie

 

[Tessa]

Thankyou for telling us here where you are safe with friends. I watch so much of this trauma around me where I work and I know it is a hard situation. I wish we could make it stop. I will send caring thoughts to you as you struggle with this pain,both internal and external.
((((HUGS))))

 

[Froggie]

Thank you for your honest response missing_the_sunshine. If I were in your shoes, I'd probably do the same. I will put you and your brother in my prayers so that things will positively happen for both of you. ((((((HUGS))))))