X-ray Shows Old Trauma; Reason For Pain - Md Confirms

[James B.]

Hello everyone,

Not sure this is the right forum for this thread. It regards symptoms of some old head/neck trauma.

So about 3 weeks ago I got some imaging done on my neck. The MD who ordered the X-rays is a pain doctor who specializes in acupuncture. I like him. When the imaging arrived we had a meeting to discuss the results. It appears I have some irregular bone growth, and other signs of some fairly significant early injuries about the head, neck.

This X-ray supports my impression/memories of early injuries to my head, mostly happening to me when I was very little, often with no real memory. These injuries were inflicted by my siblings. Have written about the home situation in my diary, etc. I was told many times (these stories) by my siblings, what they did to me (mostly). I have memories of that.

It's a somewhat sad tale of scared kids being cruel to an infant/near infant sibling. After I discussed this stuff with my doc, we had an acupuncture session. I started weeping pretty hard during it, releasing something. The doc was fine with it, just deep quiet sobbing during the session, then it ebbed as I remained on the table for a half hour or so.

I have a problem with my neck that is sort of significant. It just feels "wrong" or like I can't "get it right". LOL. I have some grinding bones in there too, the ones that are growing together I guess. Glad to know about this stuff. Acupuncture seems to be helping. There is some pain, some days better than others and oh, a little arthritis in my neck too, but not very bad.

Doing well overall.

 

[BloomInWinter]

(((((((James)))))))

Wishing you comfort...

 

[James B.]

Thank you Bloom In Winter, guess I am needing some support. Thanks a bunch.

 

[BloomInWinter]

Thank you Bloom In Winter, guess I am needing some support. Thanks a bunch.

...and you deserve comfort...and to be proud of yourself for doing the hard work of healing. May your journey bring your profound peace and joy!

 

[James B.]

That's a terrific thought BloomInWinter!

It is kind of odd right now. that's all. Feeling more stable than ever and, I think, finally not faking it. It seems pieces (maybe real pieces) of my CPTSD puzzle are coming together? It'll be two weeks before another acupuncture session. The break is probably wise.

 

[Sammy]

((((James))))
Hang in there! I hope acupuncture helps all kinds of pain with which you are dealing. Lots of caring support from the other coast.

 

[James B.]

Hi Sammy!

Hope you're doing alright. :)

My MD said the trauma (it is kind of densely clustered muscle knots, yikes) "wants to get out". LOL, he said beware of emotions coming up, too. Guess he's done some trauma work.

 

[shell]

Hi James

Sorry to hear you're suffering, I recently had the same experience and I've got to admit I still haven't dealt with it. After having a CT Scan which revealed lower back disc problems, which I knew about from child birth, but it also revealed severe damage to my lower facet joints, chipped bone fragments on my lower spine resulting in osetoarthritis, cysts and nerve damage. I felt like ringing my mother and screaming abuse at her. It's the second injury revealed that she did in the last 12 months, hopefully it's the last. I found it helpful having an answer, as my physio was making snide remarks about the pain and numbness maybe being in my head, as it didn't fit the disc issues he could feel in my back. At least I know I'm not crazy! Well not all the time!
It sounds like you have a very understanding doctor. Acupuncture sound much better than the anti-inflamatories I'm taking. I'm curious does it hurt?

 

[James B.]

I'm curious does it hurt?

Thank you, shell, for taking the time to reply.

I had a mild trigger reading your post. Yes, it is something when a medical image reveals the injuries, isn't it? I suppose the "validation' part might be a good aspect. But I found myself having an imaginary dialogue with siblings as I drove home just now. I was telling them what the doc/x-ray found... Then asking what (the hell) did they do to me?

Pretty emotional stuff.

Your question about pain from acupuncture. Well, it's kind of funny. Have had some really deep body-work, you know? Stuff like Rolfing. And never any residual soreness. Have been having some residual soreness from the acupuncture, but it may be specific to my "malaise".

Specifically, I feel no pain from the process during session. Maybe the exception being some shots (little stabs) of pain when he does the acupuncture on the top of my noggin. LOL. My instincts say, it is helping and I am keen to go back to the once a week sessions when my doc returns from vacation. And in my case, being almost 54 now, certainly no reason not to explore it.

shell, if you'd like to discuss your injuries (and their symptoms/net emotional residue) at greater length, please feel free to do so. This thread is wide open. BTW, I had neurosurgery on my lumbar spine last June; blown disks.

 

[James B.]

My MD/acupuncture doc mentioned a topical medication for my neck. When I see him again, need to remember to ask about this. I am also wondering what he knows (or what he saw) in my injury (images) that tipped him off to early trauma, because I never mentioned it. Went in there with my leg muscle problem, mentioned lumbar surgery last June, and that my neck was bugging me, too.

This old injury stuff makes me emotional.

 

[Nicolette]

I have a problem with my neck that is sort of significant. It just feels "wrong" or like I can't "get it right". LOL. I have some grinding bones in there too, the ones that are growing together I guess. Glad to know about this stuff.

While I am sorry for your injuries and pain James I believe a lot can be said for 'validation' which is what you have just found. They did "really" hurt you. :(

 

[James B.]

Yes, Nicolette.

My neck began bothering me a lot in my early 20's. It is good to now know why. Validation.