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[Rainrunner]

Hi - I'm new to the forum. I was diagnosed with PTSD about 2 years ago. I was in an abusive relationship for 30 years. So, I was finally able to divorce him and left the marital home a year ago (April was the one year mark). I am unable to have a relationship involving another man. Too scary. I also find that I will be ok for awhile and then I start to feel uncomfortable. Reminds me of the pattern while with him that he would be ok for a bit, I'd feel the buildup so to speak, and it felt like I was waiting for the rug to get ripped out from under me. Now he's out of my life and yet he's still in my head.

Anyway, I will navigate around for a bit and if anyone has a suggestion where the best spot for me would be, please let me know. Thanks!

 

[BigBear]

I'd say that one of the best things that you can do is to find people with similar stories and talk to them.

I do also hope that you are in counciling if you are still hurting.

No mater what, I hope you feel welcome here. There are lost of good people, good places, and good information here!

Bear

 

[Rainrunner]

Hi Bear - thanks for the welcome. Was in therapy for two years and stopped about a year ago.

 

[Kim]

I suffer from PTSD / Complex Trauma due to emotional abuse and neglect. After my mother got through with me I married an abusive alcoholic (basically I married my mother but she doesn't drink). So I can relate.

Welcome to the forum.

 

[Froggie]

Welcome to the forum RainRunner. You will meet other members who have a similiar story. Take time to read through some articles and posts/threads. What caused my PTSD was not marital violence, even though I did experience that. Just wanted to say, that I too am not able to convince myself to get back into a relationship with a man. So on that aspect, you are not alone. Take your time to go around on the forum and when you will feel ready, you will be able to share more of your story.

 

[Rainrunner]

Thanks everyone. I called the therapist I was working with before to get back in to see her. I keep thinking that "it" will go away or I rationalize that since I have more good days than I used to I will be ok in time. I'm not sure where to post within the forums. Just go to Discussion? I don't want to post in the wrong place.

 

[purple butterfly]

Welcome Rain Runner I was also in a 30 year relationship with my alcoholic husband. I am so glad you were able to leave the relationship. My way out was with my husband's death from cancer. I went from an emotionally abusive father to my re;lationship with my husband.

I hope you feel supported here, everyone is very kind and understanding

 

[Roobie35]

Hi - I'm new to the forum.

You are here...it's a good place to start!