Hello - Dying Again - It's Just Me - Hurting

[James B.]

Sorry - I have been going for it, And all I have recovered is an old memory of everyone laughing at me, after they tried to kill me. I am breaking down. I am an early trauma survivor, cracking the egg....

 

[Sqweak]

((((James B.)))

U#g!h@! Screw those people!

You have no reason at all to feel sorry, I can't bring myself to fathom what you're going through right now. But you are here, and you're taking the steps necessary toward healing and that's really something.

Feel better soon.

 

[James B.]

Thanks.

 

[Sammy]

(((James)))
I second Sqweak. No reason to apologize and screw them. Just keep working at it and remember you matter here!
Been doing some of the same myself. So many missing memories. Only little snapshots that seem disconnected from anything else. Hard work, this finding balance.
Are you taking care of yourself? Eating? Resting? Getting out? Taking some photos? Giving yourself permission to grieve and then remembering what an awesome person we know you to be?
Hang in there. It will get better! Emotions are temporary and they change. Keep fighting through. You are a wonderful and gifted person, no matter what some idiots in your distant past might have told you. You are important and matter.

 

[Tinyflame]

James, the experience of that (their behaviour) was sick and twisted, thank God you defied it (and the odds) and are 'here', for all of us and the gift you are of yourself.

-I'm sorry it's so painful :(:cry:
(((((((James)))))))

 

[James B.]

thank you!!!!!

:speechless:

 

[Deleted member 6617]

Thinking of you James!

 

[James B.]

Thank you PH. I am going through something!

I had a massive acupuncture session, today. And triggers about my (dad) and and early trauma. And have been having a hard time holding my breath. Sorry....

 

[James B.]

I will be fine. I am a c-PTSD type early (prolonged) trauma sufferer. and believe something 'root" or close to root type trauma is coming up. I am letting it out...

Thanks Junebug/Sammy/ Sqeak. LOl. Just aniother 'ptsd sufferer friday night' - right?

oh gosh.

 

[Tessa]

Hang in there James. Sending healing thoughts your way.

 

[Froggie]

Hello ((((James)))), when memories start coming up and out, it is very hard to deal with, but the body-soul is also telling you that you are getting stronger with coping skills to deal with what has happened. Life felt that you are a precious need for a better society, you will bring lots to many as you do here for members on this forum. Candle is lite today for all those who need a good warm and guiding light. May your acupuncture session have brought some help.

 

[BloomInWinter]

(((((James)))))

*aghast at the cruelty you've endured*

Sending you wishes for discernment that will allow you to pull that hurting little boy out of there, and save him now as you couldn't, then. Hold his hand, and walk together out of that wretched place and into the present.

He's safe now. Because he's with you.

As are we.