What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[AngelKeeperJ]

(((Lizio)))(((Sandra)))

 

[wcdean]

Cheer up guys. I think we've all had a bit of a rough one this week. The week is over, though, and a new one is beginning. Let's work together to make this one more positive for us all.

Here's hoping you guys are getting some rest and rejuvenation both today and tomorrow.

 

[Tinyflame]

I like that thought. Small, happy/ kind steps. :) :inlove:

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

I feel SO grateful!

My son has turned out so much better than I could have hoped. I always worried that he would be warped from having a mother with severe depression and having a sister who was so crippled and sick. I was a single working mother until he went to live with his dad @ 13. I 'held' myself together all those working years but I did go through a bad crash after that. He chose to go, because my health was deteriorating. Sooo much pain...then I moved back to my parents.

He did go thru some rough years, but has turned his situation around wonderfully. I believe I succeeded and raised a man who is not afraid to show his emotions, and who knows how to treat a woman. I didn't raise him in church, but we always talked about God and he knows my faith is what keeps me going. I didn't want to him to grow up believing that God and the church are the same thing. He is going to go to church in the Philippines with his GF tomorrow. :) I couldn't ask for better!

 

[wcdean]

Pissed; pure, unadulterated anger.

Leave it to my mother to trigger me... lady knows how to get under my skin like no one else. I know she loves me but she just doesn't understand and I can't make her. If she can't back off, I'm going to have to cut her out of my life. Every time we speak she triggers me.

 

[Sandra]

I'm sorry to hear about your experience. I know it all too well. I removed my brother out of my life years ago cause he wouldn't stop abusing me.

 

[Sandra]

I feel better today since I had a good rest.

 

[wcdean]

It's not even abuse; she thinks everything is about her. If she would have done this, or if only she would have done that. No matter how many times I tell her there is nothing she could do. I cannot stand having to repeat myself over and over.

Was actually doing well today, since I too rested better than usual yesterday. Am supposed to meet friends out tonight and so want to cancel, but know if I do I'll just sit here and stew. Hard to not let it derail me.

 

[Sandra]

It might do you some good to get out of the house tonight.

And don't be so hard on yourself.

Big hugs to you Wcdean.

 

[wcdean]

I'm determined to at least make myself go and try to have a good time, which is a big step. A few weeks ago I would let this keep me in, but not now. I have to try; if I don't then the "trigger" will always win.

Thanks for the hugs, guys (ahem... I mean ladies). As usual, you guys always know how to relate and that in itself is helping me push through this episode, knowing that people out there DO get it even if some of my loved ones don't.

 

[Sandra]

Oh we DO get it Wcdean. I think more then all us really realize at times.

 

[wcdean]

Yeah we've ALL got it... (poor attempt at humor but it made me halfway smile, as unfortunate as it is we're lucky to have people who do understand)