Feeling Unwanted And Unloved

[Sandra]

I know with myself I tend to hide from this kind of issue. Which makes the problem worse as one should learn how to face and deal with it.

 

[Sandra]

I can understand that James B.

 

[Sandra]

My so called mother died at age 61 so I guess she got her Karma for not living a long life. As she didn't deserve to be on this earth longer.

 

[James B.]

I know with myself I tend to hide from this kind of issue. Which makes the problem worse as one should learn how to face and deal with it.

Yes Sandra, I think you are right.

 

[James B.]

so I guess she got her Karma for not living a long life

karma ate the living crap out of my parents, they had no happiness, only the impact of my fathers horrendous mental illness...

 

[ms spock]

Well, you can feel unwanted and unloved, or you can feel the way i do: hated by family, better off dead or morbidly disabled so as to appease their need for blood lust in destroying me.

I could have written that - my family are so destructive towards me.

I feel that in some ways I definitely know the depth of pain you are encapsulating here.

ms spock

 

[Sandra]

When I was married and had enough of his crap and filed for a divorce it was then he hung himself.

 

[ms spock]

Looks fine to me. :)

There are a couple of things I would have tidied up a bit more. But on the whole I think if someone is reading through they will be able to understand this thread.

I don't know if putting several posts in one post was a good idea. I might do it differently if this happens again. It has been an educational experience.

ms spock

 

[James B.]

I could have written that - my family are so destructive towards me

warm and fuzzy world eh???

 

[ms spock]

My folks had property together, they were the "estate building" team...remote emotionally, never spoke to me once as a regular human being, and never said ' i love you' and so on...

it is fortunate my siblings, father and mother stopped (the abuse) where they did, because my sister, she understood, and had similar reason to consider legal action or other means to destroy them...simply out of abused animal aggression.

Bringing these people before the courts is a good and noble thing. Not able to be done by everyone (like me!) I so admire those that start the process, nevertheless go through the whole process.

ms spock

 

[James B.]

When I was married and had enough of his crap and filed for a divorce it was then he hung himself.

holy crap, so sorry Sandra, I guess if my dad had blown his brain's out, i wouldn't have been surprised at all.

 

[ms spock]

When I was married and had enough of his crap and filed for a divorce it was then he hung himself.

That is so selfish and punishing Sandra - that is so cruel to do to another person.