I Hate People

[sparrow smith]

This only started about last year. I haven't been trusting people. Even my friends. Worse, I constantly feel like hitting someone. Only my closest friend are free from my wrath. But sometimes I hate them too.

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[Philippa]

this only started about last year. i haven't been trusting people. even my friends. worse, i constantly feel like hitting someone. only my closest friend are free from my wrath. but sometimes i hate them too

Been there, done that. It's normal. It makes you human.

I had an attack of it the other night on another forum. This woman gave me some attitude, and I lashed out at her. For about an hour after that I felt nothing but hatred for her and was amazed at how irrational it all was...but the emotion was so intense and strong that if she had been in the room with me I would have decked her.

She didn't even say anything that bad.

 

[timetorecover]

That just came up for me in therapy!! Being irritated by others is a massive thing for me. If someone so much as breathes in my space I want to knock their socks off!! :mad:

I have found that through therapy, I have released new emotions, Anger being one of them. I used to be so laid back!

 

[Philippa]

Yeah same. I used to be such a peaceful, laid back person who was of the mind that I could never hate anything, and loved everything and everyone. There was no need to be angry and violence was only something to be used as a last measure.

 

[timetorecover]

Its protection and defence. The brain goes into alarm mode and everything goes RED.....

 

[Kaii]

OMG, me too!!

Although for me it's more of a mixture of fear and dislike. I don't like being around other people anymore, I prefer to be alone. And strangely, it doesn't bother me in the least. I have my dogs and dogs are reliable, unlike people.

 

[Philippa]

Kaii, this is exactly how I have felt since I was a teenager. I prefer the company of animals to most people. I used to want to meet everyone in the world...now there are few people I really want to meet, and that I consider worth meeting.

 

[timetorecover]

I have decided that I prefer my cyber friends!! HOW SAD AM I? :barefoot:

 

[Aetai]

Hi, I joined this forum because i wanted to reply to this thread. I have felt this way for a very long time, i can't seem to find anything in common with people these days, and the things people think are acceptable just sicken me to be honest..everyone seems to get off on being two faced, backstabbing, liars and cheaters and i just hate it. I don't feel like i can trust any body.

 

[mamachick]

I went through a period of hate and understand that feeling. If you can keep reminding yourself they are human too, with all their flaws, and take the time you need. For me, as healing comes, the feelings of hate disappated. I still prefer alone time.

 

[Anna]

Kaii, this is exactly how I have felt since I was a teenager. I prefer the company of animals to most people. I used to want to meet everyone in the world...now there are few people I really want to meet, and that I consider worth meeting.

Same. I used to have a dog who was my trusted companion. I find it extremely hard to trust people. I have learned to live with it now, but people often complain I am arrogant and cold also extremely withdrawn.

I have learned how to be polite and well mannered around people. Also starting a hobby like martial arts helps to control that anger in a positive way. Running or brisk walking also helps to burn off that energy.

Not everyone is bad. There is good in the world. It takes awhile but time is a great healer.

 

[landytoday]

I also have been having quite a bit of problems with controlling my anger ( my husband and I call it the psycho landy) And I was never that way before. Always go with the flow. Now, had I been seen or heaven forbid hurt someone besides myself I'm sure I would be in jail. I found myself in a 100mph road rage event with someone on my way back from my psychiatrist. She is 99 miles round trip and it was dark....NO EXCUSE..I just can't beieve that was me. I had my window down and the gas floored swearing at this guy while I was in the other lane before I even realized what I was doing. I almost still can't believe it. I don't go to the store very often because I can't stand how close people get to you. Whatever happened to the 24" comfort zone rule? My uncontrollable anger and seemingly inability to control it has become a real issue. We are woking on mood stabilizers, but in the mean time...my poor husband and son and family, and yes, even the assholes that pass you on a dark rainy night in a truck with a trailor and spray muddy water all over the windshield. I hate the way the hate makes me feel. I feel like I'm the bad person. I'm the problem